Celebrity Imagines

studio vibes part 3

He sighed and sat down on the bar stool he posted a picture of us from last night and captioned it this girl is amazing and so talented how could you ever hate her I love and adore her and you should too I posted one to and captioned it how could you ever hate this boy then Shawn looked at me "why are afraid of love, if you don't mind me asking" i looked at him "my dad left when I was 8 he told my mom and I that he was just getting something at the store he left and never came back my mom blamed herself and she never loved again but they spent months agruing and fighting he hit her and beat her and I have trust issues I'm afraid of love because if I don't love I can't get hurt "but I would never hurt you"

"You say that know but what if" "What if were meant to be together" "I don't believe in true love shawn" I stood up "but you liked me before you met me why" "because I didn't know you and it was easier to believe in a fanasty then actually believing that we could ever be together" He kissed me passionately and depended the kiss then pulled away "you are amazing and you deserve to make your fanasty a reality I like you and I'm not gonna stop until your mine" I kissed him passionately then pulled away he smiled "your lucky your cute mendes"

1 year later Shawn and I have been dating for a year now one knows because we've never told anyone

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3 months later I recently revealed Shawn and were dating in an ellen interview
"Are you dating mendes are you not dating mendes" "i am dating him, we've been together for 15 months and he is my best friend i love him" I was wearing (pic above)

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Shawns interview with a radio station

"Hey can we get your girlfriend Austin on the phone" the interviewer asked "You can get my girlfriend Austin on the phone" I replied I got on my phone and dialed Austin's number I face timed her "oh you know what, she actually might be sleeping it's like 4 am in California" it rang for a while "yeah she's probably be sleeping" then she answered "hi Shawn, wait I thought you had that radio thing today" she answered tiredly in her glasses and no makeup "actually I'm here now" I told her

"why do you do that to me" she got shy and hid her face" "because the people love you" "I mean whats not to love" the radio guy said "true" Shawn says "babe why are you up so early" "i couldnt sleep so im going to the gym" she told me "oh alright bye babe" "bye" we hung up andBack to me

I gor ready i had a pre workout shake and spent 2 hours at the gym burned 3,500 calories then i got a shower and went to my therapy session i have PTSD from my childhood Shawn doesn't know only my family knows then i went to my photoshoot with adidas originals then i went home i changed into pic above when it was over

Shawn called me i put him on speaker "i'm in California where are you at" "my house" I told him "oh I'm coming over" he said "okay" "i'll be there in like 20 minutes" "okay see you then, love you bye" "love you too bye" we hung up

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Shawn and I were fighting again it's just because i get angry easily and I need better coping skills "i don't think I can do this anymore" shawn said "no Shawn I'm sorry don't leave me" i grabbed him crying "i dont get it, you get so upset over little things you over-react at times and you get so angry at me when I didn't do anything you have panic attacks when I leave you for more then 5 seconds you sleep with the light on when im not here why and you go to therapy but you won't tell me why I feel like I'm losing you"

he was walking towards the door" "I have PTSD" i blurted he turned around "what" he asked "i was diagnosed with ptsd, when I was 17, I get agitation very easily i have panic attacks because I have severe anxiety, and mistrust, I trust you i am scared that you leave me forever, i have emotional detachment

and unwanted thoughts, exaggerated startle response, problems with concentration i sleep with the light one gecause I'm afraid, I avoid memories, thoughts, or feelings about or associated with the traumatic events or of external reminders like people, places, and conversations,

I go to therapy to cope with my symptoms i have low self esteem and i constantly have thoughts of killing myself but in my head I know I'll never actually do it"

"Why didn't you tell me" "because I was afraid" i told him "okay well i think you should move to Canada and live with me" he said "you were just about to break up with me" "I didn't mean it i love you so much please" "okay I'll move to Canada with you" i kissed him passionately then deepened the kiss then pulled away