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Chapter 5

/ Jenna POV/

I stand there motionless. Sam's eyes poor into mine, while his eyes scream in sadness, and confusion. I avert my eyes away from Sammy and focus on the landscape around me.
I ask myself three simple questions.

Why am I back here, like in Omaha?
Why did my mom bring us here?
Why can't my life be normal.

My whole fucking life is a question to be honest. There's not one day that goes by where I ask myself why am I even alive.

Why did I tell Sammy I didn't miss him?
Now I'm the one that's lying.

All I want is Sammy to wrap his arms around me and whisper to me that everything's going to be alright, just like the old days.
But I blew him away, just like I did four fucking years ago.

Sammy is standing there, while the cold north breeze blows through his brown hair, causing his hair to blow in all sorts of directions. His hands are glued together inside of his RVCA pullover sweater pocket. He doesn't make any movements. Not even the slightest movement. The biggest movement he's made in the past minute and a half is flutter his eyes. He just stands there, motionless, and emotionless.
He has a dead look plastered on his face.

I shift my weight over to my left leg, getting more impatient by the second, wondering if he's just going to stand there all night and stare at me with his big, sparkling hazel eyes.

" are you just gonna stand here all night in the freezing cold and stare at me?"
" there's nothing to fucking say, Jenna!" He snaps back rather quickly.
I stare at Sammy and a loud sigh erupts from my mouth.
I don't say a word. I just give him the silent treatment.
" are you just gonna stand her all night in the freezing cold and stare and me?" He mocks back in a annoying tone.
That pushed me over the edge, causing me to snap. Just everything put together, his confidence, his cockiness, his presence, just everything pushed me over the edge causing me to explode.
" what the hell is you're problem? Like seriously Sammy. Do you think I want to be here, back in Omaha? Do you think I want to be living with you and your family? Do you think I want to be having this conversation right this second with you? To Answer all those questions for you every single answer is no! A simple fucking no! Do you understand that sam!"
I screech at him not even knowing what words are coming out of my mouth.
" Do you really think I want you to be living with me? When my mother told me that your mom, sister and you had to stay here, I went crashing, Jenna! I don't want you here because it just brings back our memories. What we had, Jenna. And we're never getting that back." He screams. He starts off in a frustrated tone, but towards the end he calms himself down, pulling himself together.
" i don't want this either Sammy. I don't want to be here, in Omaha, with you." I say, gesturing my arms to the landscape and surroundings.
Sammy studies my face for a minute.
" then what do you want Jenna? What? Because it clearly seems like nothing you get or have is ever going to be enough." He snaps at me rather quickly.
I shake my head in disbelieve that he just said that.
" really? Do you really want to know that?" I snap back rudely.
" if I didn't, then why did I ask?"
I cross my arms and part my lips slightly.
" I want what we had four years ago" I say confidently.
Sammy's gaze is staring at me.
I sigh out of irritation and annoyance and walk away.
As I'm walking I can hear the summer leaves crunching underneath my feet. The moon light shines down guiding me back to the house.
" you know Jenna. You're really self-centred." He yells at my trying very hard to catch my attention.
My legs stop walking. Irritation and frustration runs through my body causing me to get anxious.
I am thinking of all these things I could say to him to prove him wrong, but I know he'll just come up with some clever comeback that will make me shatter even more. Even though there's nothing else to shatter. The only sentence I can actually comprehend and push our of my mouth is
" you're such a fucking asshole"
I clench my jaw together while I fume with anger.
God, he's such a prick.
Out of all people he knows inside and out.
He fucking knows that I want a perfect life that I'll never get it and He still had the fucking nerve to say that to me.
I want to walk away but my body is numb. I can't move.
Finally, I get enough courage. My body is no longer numb, and I'm no longer lost in my train of thoughts.
I take one last deep breath, and let the moonlight guide me to the front door. I run up the three stairs on the outdated deck. I can hear Sammy running behind me but that doesn't stop me from walking away.
" jenna stop."
I stop on the third step with my back facing Sammy.
" what the fuck do you want now?" I scowl.
" just hear me out."
" if hearing you out means listening to you blab on about how I'm so self-centred, fucked up and an asshole then I'm not listening" I snap back harshly
" what the fuck jenna. You're so stubborn."
All of these clever, rude snappy comments come running through my mind. I feel a lump in my throat start to form causing no words to come out of my mouth.
" know what's funny? How quickly someone can turn into a total fucking asshole" I say calmly.
" well has if ever fucking crossed your fucking clueless brain that we dated for three years? I loved you up until four years ago when you left. When you were gone you were the only person I wanted but you blew it! You fucking blew it it's kinda hard to forgive the person that Mean't everything to me, then decided to walk away." He says gesturing his hands all all sorts of directions.
" do you not realize I know that! Do you think I wanted to leave? Do you think I had a choice? My dad fucking abused us, Sammy! When we left we were free, no worries no nothing! I had a lot more to worry about then my boyfriend That I left . I know that sounds really ignorant, but Sammy you gotta understand! Two months later my father found us in L.A and it started up again. Have you ever thought that's why I'm here? I'm here to start over not to re-live my past. I'm trying to be happy. But when you bring up that you never loved me, and that I'm a fuck up, it doesn't help the situation."
Sammy's big hazel eyes stare at me. His eyes poor into mine. he doesn't say a word. He parts his lips and turns his head to the side with a confused look plastered on his flawless face.
" sammy. There were countless times where I wanted to call you when I left and tell you that I loved you and that I'm sorry for leaving unannounced. I didn't have the strength and courage though. For me to call the guy that I loved the most, the thought of that tore me apart because I knew I hurt you."
The cold north wind blows through my waist long hair. A chill runs through my body causing goosebumps to appear.
Not one sound erupts from Sam's mouth.
I swiftly turn around and slam the screen door behind me.
// A/N //
Hey guys:)) sorry it took so long to update! I started school on Wednesday and I've been super busy. I won't be updating as often lately due to school but I'll update as soon as I have a chance. Please vote and comment🙈😍