Finding Our Souls

Prologue

It's been 3 years since we parted ways and now I've learnt how to take up my shit and leave wherever im not needed. I don't have extreme trust issues but the thing is that I don't want to do another mistake which will cost me going through stuffs again. It's pathetic to know that people use their wealth to buy people. To them, trust and feelings are nothing other than words, they don't give a fuck about yours when it comes to leaving and all they can say is they are bored, I'm doing this for your wellbeing, you're not happy with me and whatever.

I was wrong to allow someone to play my feelings and let go of any unfaithful act of his. I wish I knew what was self respect back then before letting him abuse me and tear down my dignity.

Yes, I agree, Im not from a rich family, I live a simple life, take care of a small apartment, a job and that's it.

I don't have friends, I don't even plan to befriend anyone. All they do is get into your weaknesses and exploit you. I don't think I need friends nor anyone else.
I've been brought up by my aunt who taught me that I should be enough for myself to survive in this world, nobody will ever be yours no matter how much they tell you that they love you, they would be here for you? Fine keep waiting for this it won't happen, no matter how much you'd ever love someone, they will end up hurting you and tearing your heart like a piece of paper, you will try to change someone? Nanana, know that it's impossible to change someone, if the person wants to change he can change himself but not others, someone may pretend to change and turn to your likings but as soon as they can't cope with this new them, they turn back to what they once were and even worst, no matter what, I am my own need and nothing else matters.

My father was a drug addict and he left my mother as soon as he got aware that she was pregnant. After 9 months my mother died due to excessive bleeding during my birth. I still curse myself for this. Maybe if I never came to this world my mother would still be alive.

However I guess my life is doomed, but I gotta carry on...

Like someone ever said:

'The last hour is when you can no more move foward and achieve anything anymore, no matter how good you're doing and you're following the right path, moderate your confidence because certainly at a point in life, the wrong path crosses the right ones to mislead travellers."

So never lose yourself, always love yourself even if you can't, pretend like you do, you'll eventually forget that you're pretending,
With or without some people, life goes on,
Don't get stuck onto people, move foward and reach out to your best.