Finding Our Souls

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This is Joelyn Milson, a young working lady of 21 year old, back from work on a Friday night,

#POV of Joelyn:

I insert the keys in the keyhole, unlock the door, turning the knob, I walk wearily inside. All exhausted I throw myself on the couch.

After a long tiring day of work, Im now home.

"Finally!" I express after hurling the shoes out of my feet.

I take my phone and check my email. "Damn, an offer from the office"

I scratch my head wondering if I should accept it or not.

"Well, it consist of hiking alone. My boss giving me an off for that? That too for a week!? Kinda unbelievable, but whatever" I shrug it off.

Closing the email, I check my inbox, I sigh heavily realising there's no text from him and there won't even be any.

I text aunt Marisa to inform her about the offer that I finally accepted.

Hey aunt Mari, Im going for hiking:

Aunt Mari: That's so fine, you gon take care okay!??

Surely I would, see you soon:

Aunt Mari: see ya sweetheart😙

Aunt Marisa is the one who brought me up and took care of my studies ever since I was little.

I place my phone back on the coffee table and stare blankly at the white ceiling.

*I wonder how I couldn't understand his mind games, why did I fall for him?*

I let the sound of the rain outside wander my feels and allow myself to relax in the arms of loneliness. My own shadow acts as my only support and the voices in my head helps me overcome my fear.

Stepping back into reality, I let go of the couch and move to the shower. My apartment aint that big, its just a master bedroom containing a kitchen, a dinning room and a wall dividing the bathroom, all in one. I crease my clothing into a ball, aiming the laundry basket, I throw it and watch it fall in, screaming, "GOALLLL!!!!"
and then I step into the shower and allow the cold water to flow over my pale dry skin, I wince at the flow of water on my scars and let out a groan, loud enough to echo in the bathroom. I still let myself haunted by my demons, I can't let them go, never ever, I get grip of the blade on the shelf and start my routine. I close my eyes as I feel the sharp ends dig into my flesh. My eyes open, all red and filled with hatred, I watch the water im standing in turn red with blood. I let out my screams and hit the wall with my fist. It's something usual now, it's an everyday thing and Im used to it.

After stepping out, I choose a baggy shirt and a pair of shorts and tie my hair in a bun. Yeah right, I'm completely different when I'm out of shower.

"Im hungry asf" I complain, both hands on my fat tummy.

I move to the kitchen, remove a pan to fry an egg and some bacons with fritters.

"Perfect", I lay the dinner on the coffee table and switch on the television to watch the news.

BREAKING NEWS : There is a cyclone in force in Nebraska, such a hurricane appears once in a while, It may persist over the area for a week or two, people are advised to stay safe and keep their provisions, there mi...

"The only missing fuck.." I confirm, rolling my eyes after switching off the 'image box'.

Now that I'm ready for the hike, nature is against me enjoying it, but anyway, I love rain, if not right, then why not left.

Talking about rain, it actually started raining outside. I slide the door of the small balcony and let the the rain fall onto my skin. All I could feel is my body at ease, the droplets of water washing away that tension for a while, some things might be a relief for a while to the pain, but the pain is as temporary as the relief, one day it will have to fade away too, even if it takes minutes, days, months or even years, but it has to.
I open my eyes and catch the swirling dark and fluffy clouds far away from where I stand, the weather was so gloomy and melancholic, one of my favorite climate,

*whistled*

"woahh, I wish this was a daily scene, I mean, look at how fucking nice this looks" I say to myself biting my own lips as the rain drops turns into tiny streams on me.

I walk back inside and take a towel to dry myself, it is when I suddenly hear the ding of my phone.

I raise a brow wondering what it could be,

I grab my phone and check the email I just received,

'Dear Ms.Milson,
We are sorry to inform you that your outing has been postponed for a while, we will let you know when it is due to, we apologize for this inconvenience.'

I roll my eyes and throw the phone on the couch and lay on my back to relax myself. It's been a while since I've slept. I toss and turn in bed listening to the satisfying splash of the rain outside, I flip the curtains a little, exposing the outside to me as I eventually get drowned in my sleep.