next day (saturday afternoon)
graces povi slip on my jacket and quickly head downstairs.
i grab austin's car keys and head out the door. after being forced to move here, i found a really special spot that nobody else went to. at least not that i ever saw.
(picture above^)i got in the car and started the engine taking off in the direction of my special spot.
even though i haven't lived here long, going to this special spot is my favorite thing to do. it gives me some sense of calmness, a clear mind.
after fifteen minutes of driving, i finally pull up at my spot.
i get out of the car and start walking into the woods. finally i reach the giant rock, the trees had a clearing to where you could see the lake.
something about being in nature was very peaceful to me. maybe the sounds of the wind or the vibrant colors.
i sit on the rock and stare out at the water.
olivia loved anything water related so going here gives me some hope that she's here with me.
everytime i think about her my chest gets extremely tight and painful.
they say grief will eventually become softer, more gentle over time. yet it's been over a year and every single time i think about her, i feel like i could instantly burst.
the fact that i will never be able to have a conversation with her, hug her, laugh with her, or do anything with her kills me.
thinking about it immediately send sobs to escape my mouth as i hug my knees to my chest.
i'm pissed at the world. for never having stable loving parents for my sister and i, for my parents treating olivia and i like garbage, for having to be in foster care, and the fact that my sister is dead and is never coming back.
this loneliness is a knife on my heart, cutting it with just enough pressure to be a constant pain and leave constant scars. it kills me more and more everyday, making it just that much harder to breathe each and everyday.
at this point i'm having a full on panic attack, struggling to breathe. all why wondering,
what's even the point in going on?
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omg guess who's alive. life is treating me extremely shitty and i am having a really hard time rn.
any way after 4 whole head ass months i finally updated. ik it's kinda short and sucks lol but i actually have some exciting ass shit for this book. my friend helped me come up with a big ass surprise for this book and ye it's gonna be great.
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Voiceless || e.d.
FanfictionGrace hasn't spoken a word in over a year. Until she moves towns to live with her aunt and meets one boy that changes everything