bullied

Ch. 36: He Hates Me

⋆Ariana's POV⋆

So... Karson, Chaz, Luke and Ryan didn't say a single word to me today... I guess they're pissed at me for not 'supporting' Justin when it was kinda my fault.

People at school were bothering me with questions like 'where's Justin?' or 'is he okay?' it seemed to Karson that other people cared more than I did.

I obviously didn't know how to answer them because I didn't visit him. When I told this girl 'I don't know how he's doing' she said 'wow, way to support your boyfriend'. But he's not my boyfriend. I don't even know if we're friends at this point.

He probably doesn't even care about me anymore. He probably thinks that I don't care about him anymore.

I asked Chaz how Justin was doing and he just ignored me. Basically the whole day I was ignored. Except for when Karson said 'you should have came instead of making up lies'. I do admit I made up lies. But it's complicated. She wouldn't understand. I don't think anyone would understand.

I didn't go because I couldn't see Justin hurt. If I love someone, it hurts me when I see them hurt. That's kinda why I didn't go. Also, I didn't want to hear Justin blaming me for everything. And, it's weird for everyone to know that it was my fault and I'm there. It's like I shouldn't have done it in the first place.

And sure, it wasn't all my fault. It was mainly my dad's fault. But I'm his daughter and I should have stopped him in the very beginning. I blame myself for everything.

Karson, Chaz, Ryan and Luke ditched class at 5th period. I saw them run out the back doors of the school. The teachers asked me where they were and I covered for them. I told them they were 'sick'.

They're just lucky that I didn't tell the teacher they ditched.

Now I'm just on the bus, on my way to the hospital.

I got off the bus and walked inside the hospital to the front desk.

"Excuse me? I'm looking for Justin Bieber?" I spoke.

"Yes, I believe he's in room 347 on the third floor." The lady told me.

"Thank you"

I walked down the hallway to the elevator and pressed the number 3. I waited for the elevator to bring me up to the third floor.

I stepped out of the elevator and started looking for room 347.

It was the room all the way at end. I knocked on the door and a nurse opened it.

"Yes?" she asked.

"I'm looking for Justin?" I spoke.

"Oh, Justin left with 4 friends this afternoon. I'm here cleaning up the room."

"Oh..."

"Sorry for the misunderstanding."

"Is he okay?"

"Yeah he's fine! he just needs to heal a bit but otherwise he's all good"

"Thank you."

"No problem."

Oh... so that's why they ditched? why didn't they tell me? is it because I 'don't care'? I do care!

Shit.

They think I don't care which means Justin doesn't think I care! oh my god. Why didn't I go? I'm such an idiot.

I took the elevator back to the main floor and left the hospital.

I went on the bus and grabbed my phone out.

Me: why didn't you tell me that Justin left the hospital?