Our Corner of the Universe

twenty-one.

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Melanie

I honestly have no idea what prompted me to suggest this trip upstairs, but as we were making our way to Hunter's room, the surge of confidence I seemed to have moments ago vanished. Anxiety and overthinking took its place as I began to realize exactly what he must be expecting.

We arrived at Hunter's door all too quickly, and I took a deep breath as he reached in his pocket to get his key. This was just Hunter, I can be conformable with him, I remind myself. And I want this to happen in at least some capacity just as much as he seems to. The only difference being his vast experience and my lack thereof.

Once he got the door open, he moved to let me step inside and then followed after me. After locking the door behind us, he turned to face me and pulled me close to him. It seemed that the frantic heat we were feeling before had transitioned into a slower passionate feeling as he brushed my hair behind my ear and placed his hand on my cheek.

After what feels like a lifetime, he finally brings his lips to mine. This kiss is even more incredible than the first one, something I didn't think would be possible. Hunter moved to deepen the kiss and I gladly obliged, bring my arms around his neck to pull him closer to me.

I feel the switch back to the intense heat from the dance floor as we make our way to the bed. He starts to guide us down so I am laying on the bed and he is on top of me. Hunter pulls away slightly and looks down at me, "You have no idea how long I have been waiting to kiss you again."

He leans back down and begins to kiss me, moving from my mouth to my neck. As he does so I feel his hand graze my side in the area where my shirt has lifted somewhat. At the skin to skin contact, I feel myself get goosebumps as I let out a small moan.

The moan seemed to encourage Hunter as I felt his hand move higher and higher up my torso. "You are so beautiful," he whispered as he moved back to my mouth.

I had never been in a situation like this before, and as turned on as I was, I was completely nervous at my clear lack of experience. I was unsure exactly how to touch him in a way that would feel good, but I began moving my hands down farther hoping I would figure it out as I go. As soon as I reached the desired destination, I could feel that he was hard through his jeans.

It was almost as if he was repelled by my touch because as soon I did it he recoiled back breaking our kiss. He quickly rolled off of me so that he was laying on the bed next to me, but there was no longer any contact in between us.

Panic began to rise in me as I realized that my total lack of experience was what must have turned him off. "Um... I am really sorry if I did something wrong or messed up." I tentatively say, failing miserably at hiding my embarrassment.

Hunter sat himself up so he was leaning on his elbow and looked at me. "Baby, you have nothing to apologize for. You are perfect in every way and you didn't do anything wrong. I am just worried that if we get too into it I won't have the self-control to stop, and I don't want to pressure you into doing anything you don't want to do."

I made an effort to look anywhere but at him, not wanting to face the rejection of him not wanting me in that way. When he noticed I was growing distant and getting in my head, he gently placed his hand on my face and moved my head so I was looking back at him. "Don't think I don't want this with you. Fuck, do I want to do this right now, but I know you aren't ready and I want to respect that. But it is taking all of my self-control not to pick up where we left off." His reassuring words worked to make me feel better, and I felt myself begin to blush at the thought of going back to do what we were doing.

Now that I understand why he stopped us so abruptly, I begin to feel better. I know that the other girls he is usually with would sleep with him no problem, but the fact he realizes I am not there yet makes me fall even harder.

I begin to sit up in an effort to leave, but Hunter stops me. "Where are you going?" He asks as he reaches for my hand to pull me back onto the bed next to him.

"I thought you didn't want this to happen..." I ask confused.

"Just because we aren't going to hook up tonight doesn't mean I don't want you to be with me. Stay the night?"

Of course I could not resist, so I agreed to stay the night with him. I laid back down and began kissing him again, this time me being the one to initiate it. Somehow I went from never talking to guys to spending the night with Hunter twice now in just a few weeks. It was weird to think about how comfortable I had gotten with him so quickly, and as I laid there kissing him I felt as though I could do it forever.