i love him // E.G.D

s i x

Kyla

- her dream -

I sat their in ethans arm, the place i always felt safe in "i love you ky" he whispered playing with my fingers as i looked up at him and kiss his cheek "promise that you will never leave me" i smile at him "forever and for always babe" he chuckled holding my hand as he plays with my hair

-end of dream-

I instantly sat up from my bed and looked over to ethans bed "fuck it" i say i never felt comfortable in my bed well thats because i always slept in ethans, i walk over to ethans bed with my phone in my hand and snuggle under the covers i dont care if he catches me to be honest... i couldnt care less "your a dick" i sigh as i turn on my phone and look on instagram, nothing, tea is dry.

As i turn to face the wall i hear the door open as i turn around "im just getting clothes" he smiles running his hand through his hair ignoring the fact im in his bed as he rummages through his clothes, all i could do was stare at him and notice his differences like his saggy eyes, messy hair, hickies, scratches. As he reaches for the door handle "wait" i whisper as he lets go and turns around "be safe ok" i say getting up and hugging him "i dont want you dead" i chuckle straightening up his hair as he nods and smiles walking out the door as i sit back on his bed "i forgot to say i love you" i stutter "i dont care if we arent together your my forever and for always" i stutter crying.

After a while i got up and dragged my feet down the stairs scratching my arms that were covered in bruises "morning" hannah smiled "hey" i smile as i sat at the table and got on my phone hovering over ethans contact, "did you see... him" she asks as i nod "i was laying down in his bed and he walked in" i say as she looked at me weirdly "his bed" she repeats what i say as i nod "im so use to his bed that my bed is weird for me to sleep in" i chuckle as she nods and grayson dawdles down the stairs "your up late" i chuckled, "its 12.29" he says yawning "you wake up way earlier" hannah says "im tired of ethans shit" he chuckles "when arent we" hannah says as we all laugh.

We decided to go out for lunch at a nearby café as hannah and grayson order something i just sat there alone wishing ethan was here "ill just have a water" i smile as hannah shakes her head "and a nutella waffles" i shrug as hannah smiles, ethan always order when we went out. When our food arrived i just looked at my waffles with no emotion "come on kyla" grayson says "you need to eat" he continues as i shake my head "no i- i dont need to" i stutter as he cuts a piece of my waffle and shoves it in my mouth "now chew" he says as i giggle and chew my food as hannah just laughs "grayson dont choke her jeez she gives us our clout" she chuckles as i laugh as i take a sip of my water and look infrint of me and see a smiling ethan... well it wasnt exactly ethan... it was... nothing just my imagination as i look down at my glass of water remembering everything we used to do as i see him and his girlfriend walking down the road as i try not to cry, he looked so unhappy and its only been like a week.

"He looks so upset" i blurt out as grayson notices me looking at ethan "he does" Grayson says "its only been a week" hannah says as i gulp "he looked happier with you" Hannah says swallowing her omelette as grayson nodded "he was never happy with me" i stutter "he was happier and wiser, you changed him into a better person he wasnt a dickhead with you" Hannah states as i take a sip of water. We drove home and we noticed ethans car was there "fuck" i whisper as i walk in the door and see him watching tv "hey" hannah smiles at him as his saggy red eyes turn around to us and looks straight at me "hey" he says forcibg a smile as i sit at the table and get on my phone "wheres aimee" grayson asked, aimee thats her name.

"she fell asleep so i left her house to uhh do stuff" he sighed as grayson nodded "im just gonna go for a nap" i sigh as i walk up to the room and flop on ethans bed tucking myself under the covers as i hear faint conversations happening as i doze off.

I wake up and check the time "i slept for like 4 hours" i mumble rubbing my eyes and noticed ethan was sleepung in my bed cuddling my pillow as i shrug and walk downstairs "did he sleep in your bed" hannah asked as i look up at her and nod "cuddling my pillow i sure as hell hope he had a shower" i say as she nods "he had one and said she woyld hate me if i dont shower before getting in her bed since shes probably in mine" she quoted as i nod and walk back upstairs "im too tired for staying awaked goodnight" i says as she waves and i go back to sleep.