i love him // E.G.D

t h r e e

Kyla

I stretch my arms grabbing my phone with one hand and covering my throbbing head with the other as i walk to the shower. After a few hours it was 2 so i decided to go home.

"Im home" i mumble as nobody replies "no body cares as always no one ever did" i sigh walking to mine and ethans shared room and i slump on my bed and grab my journal "i know im twenty two and i share a room with ethan but oh well" i sigh writing in my journal reading everyword i write.

Lastnight was the most fun ive had in 2 months and i dont regret it. That fucking waitress bitch was flirting with ethan and he being the dumb shit he is decided to flirt witg her infront of the girl who still loves him.

Thats when the door opened "hello" grayson says "where is he" i say sitting up "he went somewhere" he shrugs "probably to the waitresses" i sigh as he looks sad and nods "ok" i cry "fine by me" i smile tears rolling down my eyes "its been 4 years but my feelings for him havent changed a bit" I sighed "you have to fight for him he may say he loves you but remember before you two dated he was a fuckboy he may still have his fuckboy tendencies but behind all of that he loves you he just isnt sure" Grayson reminded me "still" i sigh as he nods "i thought we had it sorted" i cry "not meaning to make things worse but he went their after dinner" he adds as i throw my journal across the room and cry into my pillow "it almost happened last time grayson after the award show 4 years ago" i cry "the exact same waitress fucking flirted with him and he flirted back" i continue as grayson gasps.

Ethan walks into the hiuse with his hair messed up "back to old habits coolio" i fake smile at him and grab my glass of vodka and walk upstairs to my room, even though the dolans never drank i did at times but they didnt mind. I sit a my desk and stare at my laptop at all the words i had written.

You would never love me the way i love you, your fuckboy-ness gets to me.

I type softly pressing ym fingers agaimst the keys as ethan walks in and instantly flops on his bed and turns on his phone and smiles and chuckles to himself.

You never notice me anymore, its like highschool and middle school all over again

I sigh pressing my lips against the cold clear glass full of vodka and taking a sip as ethan just stares at me.

Im sick of being second best im either your lover or the persom who leaves. I cant pretend like im not inlove with you anymore and i already tried to pretend, i tried i really did.

A tear rolls down my eyes "so" he says as i turn to him "where were you" he asks "couldve asked the same thing dolan" i say wiping a tear and grabbing my glass of vodka and down it and walk to my bed "saw you had fun" he said as i shake my head "the reason i went there wasnt fun" i smile and grab my journal which was all the way at the end of my bed and open it to continue writing.

You act like nothing happened why the fuck are you changing

I close my journal and put it away as ethan smiles at his phone "she your new girlfriend" i ask as he looks at me innocently "uh no" he says "oh so shes a fuck multiple times and never run because i love her i just dont want to tell my ex" i say as he shakes his head as i pack a bag "now where are you going" he asks "why woudl you care you have a new fuck buddy ethan we are adults" i sigh as i grab my laptop and shove it in my bag "just tell me" he says. "Vegas" i say "ok" he shrugs "so you dont care" i ask as he shakes his head "you knows ethan its funny how you can cry and talk about being in love with me and then change when you meet ms waitress again" i smile and tidy up my bed.

"Well what do you want me to do" he shrugs "actually just dont worry because you know why im not coming back anymore im moving to vegas" i lie i was going there for a month "wait no what" he says standing up "the rest of my clothes are for hannah so leave them" i lie again "no stop" he says trying to stop me "i said not to worry ethan you can go cry to your girlfriend" i cry as i slam the door leaving him in the room alone as i storm off to my car "where are you going" grayson yells "vegas" i say as he walks over " i told ethan i was moving but im going for a 5 days" i sigh as i drive off on the road to vegas.

I arrive at my hotel for the month and smile "welcome home for a few days" i smile to myself.