i love him // E.G.D

t h i r t t e e n

Kyla

Ethan was on his phone in bed as i sat up and looked over to him in awe at his messy hair as i put in my headphones and play creep a cover by chloe moriondo. "I wish i was special" i sang as i grabbed my laptop and went onto my notes as i read over the notes i wrote for the past 7 months.

I love you ethan please never leave me

Your stuck with me forever ily lmao

I know your not reading these ethan, but you mean the world to me please never leave

I realized that all of my notes where for ethan and not about anyone else, ethan looks over to me as i smile at my laptop "why are you smiling" he pouts "because" i giggle reading through my cringey yet inlove notes "because" he says waiting for an answer "come look" i giggle as he walks over to ny bed and sits down reading my notes "cute" he says pointing to one of them as i scroll down and look over to him smiling "i love how you can make me happy just by saying one word" he says reading a note as he chuckles. If only he knew my feelings never changed.

I looked up at him as he eyes shined like no other, his hair came over his eye as he blew it out of the way as he looked down at me "you know i find it cute how you wrote those" he chuckles as he gets up "if only you knew" he whispered, if only i knew what "ethan" i say "i heard that if i knew what" i say as his hand touches the door handle to leave "just things" he smiles as he leaves the room leaving me to think. As emma facetimed me

"Hey em" i smiled at her "hey kyla" she chuckled "what you doing bitchass" i say as she grabs her coffee "as always" i chuckle "and what about you" she asks as i sigh "trying to figure if ethan still sees me how he used to" i say bitung my tongue, hurt. "ill tell you the answer" she says as i look at her through my screen "how" i say "he messages me too you know" she chuckles "go ahead i know he doesnt" i sigh as she sighs, "he always talks about how your hair is so smooth and straight, how your eyes glisten in the light when your outside, the bright smile you have on your face around him and he told me about the beach he sat with you because he wanted to keep you company he always talks about how he can wake up with you, or how he can just look at you and he is instantly happy but everytime i ask him if he loves you he never denies it but he never says yes" she smiles as ethan walks in "oh hey" i smile at him "back already" i say as he nods "hannah is already back so grayson is with her and im guessing your busy too" he sighs as i shake my head and pat my bed "im just talking to em" i say as he nods and walks over and sits down "hey emma" he waves as she waves back.

We all sat and talked for a few hours, me and emma were talking when i felt ethans eyes on me as i turn to him "you alright" i smile as he nods and emma chuckles "oop got to go ellie came over love ya bye ky bye ethan" she chuckled as she ended the call "what now" ethan sighs "movies" i shrug as he nods as we lay down under the covers and watch a movie "which one" he asks "any" i smile watching him scroll through the movies as he looks back at me and giggles "what" i say as he pushes a piece of hair out of my face  "thats better you looked goofy" he smiled "you look goofy with your hair down covering your eyes" i giggle as he blushes and i squeeze his cheeks "i pay attention to you dolan dont think that i dont pay attention" i smile and kiss him and he nods "cute can you maybe do that again" he says as i sigh "why should i" i smirk "because you love me and i love you" he shrugs "ok" i say kissing him again