i love him // E.G.D

f o u r t e e n

Kyla

His arms were wrapped around my small yet fat waist as i leant against his chest as he wakes up "morning" he smiled, his smile was the thing that got me up in the morning "morning" i kiss his cheek "I didn't even ask" he chuckles as i shrug "i love you" i smile as he kisses my lips "but i love you more" he smiles but he's only my best friend. "Isnt this weird" i say to him "what" he says as if nothing weird just happened "we acted like a couple byt were just you know" i pause "friends" i sigh "yea" he sighs "but remember those lips used to be mine so its not like its weird right" he chuckles as i nod "true" i say as i touch his hair "and your hair was mine" i giggle playing with his hair "oof i miss this" he smiles showing me a photo grayson took of us as i turn on my phone and go on instagram.

graysondolan: these two confuse me so much i swear to god

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I gasp as I show Ethan who gets up out of bed and walks to Grayson as i follow him "when did you take this" Ethan said showing Grayson the photo "last night when i was gonna ask if you wanted dinner" he chuckled "send it to ne its cute" he chuckled "whatever" grayson sighed "you two dating yet" grayson asked "well to me were are but we actually arent so" ethan said "well you two just are cute and there isnt a point of cuddling when your not dating" he says as i cough "we kissed aswell" i say coughing again as grayson looks up "you what" he says as i shake my head, "i heard that" ethan whispered in my ear "so did i" i chuckle "oh dont worry i did aswell" grayson chuckled "shit" i muttered.

Me, Ethan And Grayson decided to go to a trampoline park again since Grayson was hyper as fuck this morning, "dude i remember when cam went to do a front flip and landed on her face" Grayson chuckled doing a backflip as Ethan ran over and i sat down at a table "join us ky" Ethan said jumping up and down "no I'm good" I smile as I hold my gut as Ethan walks over to me and grabs my phone "what's the matter" he says squatting down "nothing" I gulp trying to hide the fact I wasn't happy at all without him "i can see it in your eyes" he said looking me in the eyes as i smile and grab his hand "i promise you im fine" i say as he nods and walks back to grayson who was talking to fans, as i open my phones and go into my notes. " i want to come back to you i really do but something in me is making me feel useless" i sigh writing it down in my notes as i see ethan laughing with fans as i sigh and smile at him as i notice him looking back at me and giving me the thumbs up and mouth "you alright" as i nod and he goes back to his friends.

On our drive home i  sat in the back because i felt sick, i didnt tell Ethan or Grayson because knowing them they would think im like dieing. As we arrive home i run to the bathroom and spew up in the toilet, i heard a knock on the door "you alright ky" ethan asks as i continue to spew and he walks in as walks towards me "was it something you ate, are you alright" he gasps as i sit up and chuckle with my mouth closed as he chuckled "ew get away from me your breath stank" he says as i get up and slap him and grab my toothbrush and begin to brush my teeth. As ethan walks out of the bathroom i follow him and walk towards the kitchen and grab my bottles of  vodka "you cant be deppressed" grayson sighs as i shake my head "no im  finished with these, they can kill me and im not willing to die" i say as i tip them all down the drain and chuck the bottles in the drain as etham smiles "thats good" he says as i smile.

As i walk upstairs to my bed i hear ethan and grayson talking about someone but i dont know who "just make it romantic like she did" i sigh as i think about aimee "but you dont know grayson you and hannah just got together you didnt even do anything romantic where as she did" ethan mumbled "well whats her favourite song" grayson asks "strong one direction or billie eilish's new song wish you were gay" wait. me.