The 69 and the 3 (Shuhei Hisagi X Reader)

Why didn't I just tell him at the start?

Y/n's POV.

Me and Shuhei has been dating for a week. I kept on throwing up. It was strange. I didn't want to move out of my bed. I knew Mom was worried. Toshiro is uncertain and Nathan is uneasy. Mom walked into the room.
"How are you feeling sweetheart?" She asked.
"Sick," I groaned. Mom sighed and pulled out a thermometer.
"Huh?" I asked.
"It's a pregnancy test. Go and take it," said Mom. I blushed and tooked the damn thing. I went in the bathroom and done the test. I sat on the counter. 
"I can't be pregnant, can I? No it's just a bug. It's a stupid thought that I'm pregnant. But I don't think I'm ready for a child. Not yet anyway. The war is next week," I thought. The timer ringed. I looked at the test. My heart sunk.

Positive.

I felt scared. 
"I-I'm pregnant. I-I don't know how to tell Shuhei. Will he still wanna be with me? Will he even stay to get to know his future child? Will he just ignore me? Will he never want anything to do with me?" I thought. All these negative thoughts came in.
"I don't want to worry him during the war. That's it. I'm not going to tell him yet. I will after the war," I thought. I told mom and she promised to keep it a secrete until I'm ready to tell My Brothers, My Boyfriend and Friends. 

(During the war).

"Damn it! I should've just listened to Mom! My stomach hurts! Damn it! Fuck my life!!" I thought, holding my stomach.
"Aren't you a cute little girl. I should take you back to Hueco Mundo," said the arrancar. I was afraid. He was about to grabbed me, I closed my eyes, but someone else did. I opened them and saw Toshiro in his second Bankai.

"Why are you even in the battlefield, Y/n?" He asked softly.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Don't play dumb. You're pregnant. Aren't you?" He asked looking at me. I felt tears running down my face. He sighed.
"I can't really send you back but I can put you in a force field with Hyorinmaru, so you're safe," he said. I nodded knowing arguing would get me nowhere. He put me down and another version of Hyorinmaru came out.

"That's nii-san," I said.
"No problem," He said as he activated the Kido. I watched the battle from in the force field. Then Rangiku, Shuhei, Izuru, Momo, Rukia and Ichigo came.
"Y/n! Why are you in there?!" Asked Rangiku.
"Because I am," I said playing with the snow that Hyorinmaru made. 
"Who put you in there?" Asked Rukia.
"Toshiro," I said, not looking at them. 
"Why?" Asked Izuru. I didn't answer that.
"Y/n?" Asked Momo. I put my hand on my stomach. I heard a gaped. Judging by the gasped, Rukia found out.
"What's wrong, Rukia?" Asked Ichigo.
"Why did you come out in the battle field. You know it's dangerous," she said.
"I know but I'm a soul reaper and my job is to protect," I said looking at Rukia.
"You also have another job and that was to stay at home," she said.
"I'm not allowing this to ruin my dreams. So what if I die? I don't really care," I said. I could tell the Ran, Momo, Izuru and especially Shuhei was shocked.
"It won't ruin your dreams because you told me once before that having a kid was one of your dreams," said Rukia. Ichigo, Ran, Izuru and Momo was shocked even more but I could tell that Shuhei was angry.
"He's angry? I knew he would be. I knew I shouldn't of kept it a secrete," I thought.
"It was. So what if I am pregnant? It just ruins your life," I said. I could tell that Shuhei wants to break something.
"Come on lets go back to the battle," said Rukia. Ichigo, Izuru, Momo, Ran and Rukia all left except Shuhei. I felt something inside of me. It wasn't a great feeling.
"Why did you keep it a secrete?" He asked. I looked away not wanting to look at the man I love. He punched the force field.
"Why?!" He asked.
"It's because I was afraid," I said.
"Afraid? Afraid of what?" He growled.
"Afraid of you leaving," I said walking up to him. His eyes were filled with hate. I was being to regret ever coming now. He punched the shield again.
"You were afraid of me leaving but you put the most of us in danger," he growled.
"I know. I noticed after I was fighting, I was putting everyone I love in danger. I even put the man who I love in danger the most," I said, looking at the ground.
"I can't do this anymore," he said. I looked at him with confusion but his face wasn't his normal angry face it was a disgusted face.
"Y/n, we're through," he said while leaving.
"W-Wait! W-What does that mean?" I asked.
"Our relationship is over. Whenever you see me now don't ever call me Shuhei," he said while disappearing leaving me broken. I walked up to Hyorinmaru and hugged him. He hugged back. He's like a second Father to us Hitsugayas. I cried on his shoulders.
"Why didn't I just tell him from the start?" I asked myself.