Sinking

Look At Me!

I didn't kill myself are you proud.
Don't say you can't look at me now.
I'm miserable because of you
You make me feel and look like a fool
You left like all the others
I know you love another
I just wanna be friends until the very end
You is what makes me happy but now I just feel fucking crappy
I know I deserve this pain
I know I'm begging and I'm desperate
But you are all I have to gain
No one cares just like you
I should've known but I guess I'm still a fool
Did you hear me cry, beg or even scream
Did you ever care that I might not even be here
Why am I so worthless?
You cause me so much stress
Will I ever be enough?
I guess not damn that's tough
I wish I wasn't so sad but I guess wishing isn't enough
Damn too bad
If wishing was enough you would be here
My heart is barely beating
With you around it's fleeting
It beats so wildly
That it can be chaotic and cause a calamity
This is what you cause you have more control over me than even I do
Let's be friends just us two