Sinking

Why, you?

Explaining the undeniable

You always want what you can't have or know you can't, it's as if it's in our nature. Taboo things make us curious and you can't help but explore.

You know things won't work between you and a guy you're interested in but yet you're drawn in like a moth to a flame.

You're told that you can't do this and that but why do parents have a say in what you do so you go to a party.

You get wasted or high, you're memory gets so fuzzy that you get worried, but to hell with it.

You're told that a family memory died due to sky diving but in rebellion you go sky diving just to get under their skin.

I know I can't have you, yet I am so undeniably attracted to you. Every time you go asleep while I'm still awake I immediately miss talking to you, I want to be selfish and keep you awake but that's unfair of me.

I'm not even close to what anyone would want especially you, god you are so surprising.

So calm and nonchalant but yet your music is so loud and bold. I tell myself no stop not him but my heart skips a beat when I see you've texted and immediately get this stupid smile on my face.

I laugh while talking about you, only one person knows I feel this way. I can't tell you ever and it hurts, it hurts because eventually you'll become crazy about someone and I'll listen while I'm silently breaking.

You're so far away yet I just want you to be next to me, I can't help it. You wonder why I'm so distant and it's because I didn't want to risk getting close and I didn't expect this at all.

I can feel myself slowly break every time you mention someone else but yet I'll do whatever just to hear you talk, so don't stop.