Hopelessly hopeful

chapter 6

I can't fucking believe some cunt spiked me, who the fuck could it be I know Samantha is crazy as fuck but I don't think she would do that to me although, she was the only one with my drink I put ring her when I get the chance. the doctor gave me some more pain killers and just told me to rest, I have no idea where the guys are I don't even know where my phone is to call the. iv been just sitting here for like an hour now dehydrated as fuck but no nurse or doctor is around to get me a drink, fuck this I'm just gonna go get one myself. I get out of bed find the cloths I was wearing on the chair, I dig around my pockets to find everything I need I find my wallet and walk off to the cafe, I buy a couple of sandwiches and a fuck ton of drinks I must of drunk two bottles of water even before I left the cafe. I walk back to my room and notice some women in the chair, Ciara? I walk as fast as I can as I get closer to the room I figure out who the women is, her long dark red hair up in a ponytail, she was in leggings, a white top and a black and red checkered shirt over the white top it was eve. I walk into room and her hazel brown eyes lock on mine my heart is legit in my mouth, for a second we both look at each other,  what the fuck is she doing here? how did she know I was here? " well you look like shit" eve says honestly. " speck for yourself" I joked getting back on the bed, she just laughs but I can tell with the look in her eyes she was concerned, " hey I'm okay you know" I say to her, she looks up at me with hurt and anger in her eyes " no I don't fucking know ben, I leave you for a day and then I see on every social media your passed out on stage. what the fuck ben?" why is she so pissed she's not even my girlfriend, she just some girl I fucked " firstly eve, I got spiked, secondly why the fuck are you here acting like my fucking girlfriend, your just a girl I hooked up with" I say angry. wow I sounded like an asshole but she needed to hear it, eve gets up out of the chair the pain, hurt and anger in her eyes have doubled," look around you ben your in hospital, yet the girl you fucked for one night is by your bedside, where the fuck are the four guys you have ben best friends with for the past ten years ben?  no where to be fucking seen, gosh you're  such an asshole ben" she pretty much shouted, before I could even reply she was out the door. I had to admit it but see right, where the fuck are the guys I grab my phone and saw loads of messages and missed calls, of fuck this should be fun, I ring Danny but no answer, James phone went to voicemail, I call cam and he answered " oh fuck ben how are you?" cam asked " well if yous were here with me then you would fucking know" I say pissed off " sorry dude you know I don't do hospitals, I thought the guys was there with you?" cam says confused " no cam no one is here where are they?" I ask him " oh shit I left them after the show , they said that they was going to see you" he is so confused. the door burst open and Danny,James and sam walk in " their here now cam ill speck to you when I get back" we say our goodbye and put the phone down. " thanks for joining" I say rolling my eyes " how you feeling Danny asked. I explained to them what happened and about an hour later the doctor comes to discharge me, thank fuck for that although I feel like a complete prick to Eve I need to apologise to her. We get back to the bus, I was really pissed that management canceled tonight show so I can rest, Danny makes me a coffee and some stake with chips, see Danny can come across as a bit of a dick but really his caring and sweet. I eat my food and still feel like shit so I go and lay down in my bunk, with Eve on my mind I give her a call. To my surprise she actually answers " are you done being an asshole" she says answers " wow not even a hello" I laugh " listen I want to see you" I continue. " my plane leaves in the morning to go back to London" eve said my heart sunk a bit " can't you extend your stay?" I asked her sadly, " I did when you was in hospital Ben, also I got a life to get back to" she simply told me. "please just for one more day" I beg " I need to talk to you" I say trying to tempt her but its also true. I can hear her sigh at the other end of the phone but replies with " I cant see what I can do" " okay let me know" I say we say our goodbyes and a couple minutes later there's a knock on my bunk door. " yeah?" I say for them to come in, Cameron walks in " you alright bro" he asked as he sits down on my bed " did Danny send you to do his dirty work?" I joke am just laughs and rolls his eyes, "Danny is sleeping and James and Sam have gone for a walk, I just come to tell you that we're leaving for Rome in an hour so do what you need to do" can informs me. Shit I really need to see eve before we go to Rome, we are spending like two weeks in Rome traveling through Italy. " cheers bro" I say with a weak smile, cam just nods and leaves me alone in my bunk. I get dressed, I'm wearing normal grey jeans, white converse, a white top and a grey jumper as I'm brushing my teeth my phone rings " hey" I say smiling " Iv extended my stay for a few hours" Eve says " okay, meet me at the cafe by your hotel?" I suggest " sure" she says " oh and your paying" I can hear her smile from the end of the phone " of course" I laugh I grab my wallet put it in my back pocket and just let cam know I'm going out and leave. within the next twenty minutes I was outside the cafe waiting for Eve, I didn't wait long before eve come, she look very casual but sexy as hell she was wearing black ripped jeans, black converse, white V-neck which shows a bit of boobs, and a red and black flannel and her dark red her was down and straightened. eve gives me a small smile and I just hug her, she was hesitant but hugs me back. we get a table by the window. I just order a coffee as Danny cooked me that steak and I waste hungry, eve orders a burger and chips, we small talk for a while which was awkward as fuck but unusual for us. " what did you want ben?" she finally plucks up the courage to ask " I wanted to apologise for this morning, I was a prick to you and all you tried to do is help me, please understand that, that wasn't me. I was in so much pain, feeling like shit and most honestly I was scared as fuck" I explain looking at her taking in her response. eve just looks down at her food with a sad expression, " look ben I totally understand, but what you said fucking hurt me, truthfully did you just see me as a fuck?" she asked I was stunned by her question all I could really do was sigh, run my hand through my har ad think of a reply " honestly, yeah I did at first but spending time with you the morning after and what happened in you room, I believe there was something there and id like to work on It but on the other hand I'm incapable of love, I just got a divorce before we came in your last week because I cheated on my wife."I say honestly, she looks confused probably wondering to tell me the truth or to run a mile, " look Ben, I do really like you and I want things to happen. Can we at least try?" She makes eye contact with me, her big hazel brown eyes are full of wonder and dare I say lust? I don't know what to think I want her, but I know I'm incapable of loving someone and I don't want to hurt her. I huff, look at my empty cup of coffee and say " I'll brake your heart Eve" I couldn't make eye contact with her, she's silent for a minute or so then I hear " that's a chance I'm willing to take". I snapped my head up to look at her she's smiling at me. Damn she women it perfect I'll be stupid not to. " we can try" I smile at her, she just reached over the table and kisses me.