Hopelessly hopeful

chapter 7

I saw eve into her cab to the airport admittedly my heart sunk, I begged her to come with me but she said no we are going to arrange for her to come out at some point. I was walking back to the bus and my phone rings " hello?" " yo dude where are you, we're leaving soon" James questioned " I'm like five mins aways" I inform him. five minutes later I was at the front of the door waiting for someone to open it " ayeeee someone got his willy wet" cam said opening the door, I just ignored the comment and barged my way through the door " watch it mate, I was only joking" cam said " I hope you was safe" James yells on from the sofa " oh fuck off the lot of ya" I said slamming the fridge door, I grab a beer and so straight into my bunk. "what's up his fanny?" Danny asked coming out go the toilet, " eve's dick" sam says and they all laugh. I just lay in bed for the rest on the night drinking beer and scrolling through social media, seeing all my fans post such loving stuff about me and the band in general really makes me happy, I see a post that someone tagged me in and its a picture of me and this guy at a meet and greet, he posted such nice words so I gave it a like and a comment telling him it was nice to meet him. I go and grab another beer but stumble "fuck didn't realise how drunk I am" I though to myself "better not drink anymore as we have a show tomorrow, I a managed to get back on my bunk and just pass out.

"ben", "ben", "BEN WAKE THE FUCK UP!" I hear the the feeling of someone punching me in the balls gets me up " what the fuck is your problem man"? I ask angrily I finally open my eyes to see Danny standing ay the side on my bunk " dude we have ten minutes until sound check, get the fuck up sort yourself out and meet us at the venue" Danny says. I just nod in agreement and grab my head as the slightest movement killed like fuck, " here take theses your gonna need them" Danny says throwing some painkillers at me. within the last fifth-teen minutes iv showered and gotten dressed, I pick up my phone and wallet and go to leave then my belly rumbles, then I remember that I haven't ate since Danny made me that food yesterday, I go the the kitchen and find two chocolate croissants on the counter, "fuck it that'll do" I say to myself grabbing them. as I leave I got to text on group chat we're all in the let them on I'm on my way, then I notice I got a message from eve telling me she got home safe, I message her back telling her that I miss her already and I cant wait to see her again. I reach the venue go to open the door and I feel something pull my shirt back " what the fuck" I say as I turn around to see what it was I hear " excuse me lad you cant just walk in here without a pass" me and fucking bouncers I roll my eyes, I search for my pass then it come to me that I wasn't given one, " I wasn't given one" I say to him " " and I will repeat you cant come in without a pass" he says a bit more pissed " dude I'm in the band that's headlining this venue, look that's me on that poster" I explain pointing to a poster that's advertising us at this place. the bouncer just huff " no pass, no entry" he says crossing his arms " for fuck sake!" I yell. I roll my hand through my hair in frustration, get my phone out of my pocket and call Danny.. " dude where the hell are ya?" Danny says answering the phone, " I'm outside but this prick won't let me in without a pass I never got" I say bitterly " wait you never got your pass, I gave it to cam to give to you" Danny laughs " "hey cam what did you go with Ben's pass" Danny yells laughing even more which is pissing me off even more. " look I don't give a fuck about this fucking pass just get me in!" I yell down the phone " chill bro I'm coming hang on" Danny says putting the phone down. A few moments later Danny finally opens the door for me, with the biggest smile on his face, " what took you so long" he laughs at me. I just huff and push pass the guard "cunt" I mutter under my breath, a Moment later I'm with the rest of the guys and the other bands. " hey dude want a beer?" Oli asked me " I think his had enough" James says rising his eye brows at me I roll my eyes at him " fuck yes" I say has oli throws me a beer.
30 minutes later I'm in my fifth beer, kinda feeling it now but fuck it I'm on tour, I put my guitar down on its stand. " hey ben" I hear a soft voice call out, I look up and it's a women that seemed familiar but i just cant remember her. " hey how you doing?" I ask politely, " I'm fine, can I have a selfie with you please?" She asked with her blue eye full of hope, "sure" I say with a smile. She begins to sort out her long black her, she takes the selfie and as she does her asking alexandria jumper sleeve rises up and I noticed the scars, but this time there more faded and now that have " or just a gentle reminder that now are better days" tattooed on them, " Sasha?" I looked at her confused, " you reminded me?" She asked " of course I did" I say pulling in for a hug " how are you doing " I asked looking at her arms, she laughs neverously " yeah I'm doing good, haven't seem a bad day since we first met" she said " that was like six months ago right?" I ask " yeah it was, who would of thought I'd be sending my 21st birthday with you" she laughs " oh happy birthday sasha, what's your birthday wish?" I ask hugging her again. She pulls me that little closer " to lose my virginity to you Benjamin" she whisper in my ear. I pull back and look at her, she has thr biggest grin on her face and as I was just about to tell her about eve and gently turn her down, she smacks our lips together. Within five seconds my hands are on her ass and the kiss and gotten so deep and heated we ate both out of breath, she pulled back "how about we go and have some fun in there" she nods towards the toilet. I don't know if its the alcohol talking but she's fucking pretty, how could I resist that face. fuck it I say to myself, I smirk and she takes my hand and we run into the toilet before anyone sees us, I lock the door and as I turn around she kisses me deeply, we start to remove bits of our clothes somehow we end up on the bathroom floor, I stop kissing her for a moment, move a bit of her out of her face " are you sure you want to lose your virginity on a bathroom floor" I say with a giggle, she looks into my eyes, laughs a little " as long as its with you ben, I don't care " with that Sasha wasn't a virgin no more.