You know how people say that dreams come true? Well my life was more like a nightmare.
I have had depression for two years and my life seems like a downward spiral. This hell hole of a trailer I have been living in was only supposed to be temporary but I've been stuck here for three years. I do everything I can to get out of the house as often as possible.
I was going to go to my friend alex's house but she had volleyball practice and I didn't want sit through another one of her practices pretending tbat I know whats giong on. My mom was getting mad I had been in the bathroom for two hours getting ready for my cousins party.
"Kaylee get your ass out here now other people have too use that bathroom too." She screamed at me. She was right my dad hadn't showered in a week and it was pretty obvious.
When we got there I kept thinking about ways to stay out of the house. Taylor was having people stay over for her birthday party. I ended up getting lucky she invited me to stay. Thank god I wouldn't have to be tortured with endless chores at home.
That night we decided to watch the conjuring and all the other girls scream but I thought it was hilarious I laughed while they screamed their heads off. After that Andrea's brothers Joseph and max came and we played the clap game from the movie. Joseph was my age and max was only 10.
We all had a minute to hide anywhere in the neighborhood. We ran to the farthest place we could get to without breaking the rules. Joseph ran faster than I've ever seen anyone run before.
After that we went to the stayed at the park for a little bit. I dont know why but max was scared of me. He said I was creepy and I started laughing. He told me my laugh was the creepiest part about me.
But really I didn't care about his reaction. The whole time I just kept looking over at Joseph. I wanted him to notice me and to know that I could be scary and violent just like him. I wanted so badly to impress him I just couldn't figure out why.
We went back to Taylor's house and decided to go to the trampoline. We jumped for a while. We took breaks and just laid down for a few minutes. Joseph ended up next to me so close there was only about a half inch between us.
Someone bounced and I crashed into him and was almost on top of him. He didn't seem to mind and no one else noticed so it wasnt very embarrassing. Instead there was a weird feeling in my stomach. I wanted to stay close to him he was warmer than I was and it felt good, but I felt girly and it scared me I was a violent little bitch that hated e everything. I couldn't like someone.
We got back up and started jumping again. Joseph fell and pulled on my feet causing me to fall to. We laughed and got back up. Then he jump down and pulled my feet again. This time I fell on him. "Wow Kaylee your too easy" he said. He was being childish and hyper I liked that we had something in common.
But I didn't want him to think I was weak."I didn't even try" I said to make me sound stronger to him. But it was kinda true, it was fun when he pulled me down and he only pulled me down like that. No one else got that attention.
After that he had to go home so he took max and left. I caught myself wanting him to stay but I wasn't gonna tell anyone. They would smack me and tell me I was a stupid bitch. He would not be good for me.
All of us went to sleep after he left. We were so tired from all the running we did. When I woke up he was all I could think about.
