Why do I like him so much? I don't like people I hate them.
I couldn't stop thinking about him he was more violent than me. No one is more violent than me. Before I just thought he was a stupid druggie that didn't care about life or anything that was remotely close to important.
He is way more than that. He knew where the limits were and he never crossed the line. Mabey he wasn't the best influence but he was now my influence.
It was noon when people started to wake up. I had been up for hours but I didn't want to get up alone.
When we went to the living room Max was already there. He looked at us like we were crazy. He had definitely woken up a long time ago. His house was at least a 20 minute walk to get to Taylor's house. But where was Joseph? Didn't he have to walk with Max? Apparently not.
We all decided to go downtown. We walked around for hours until we were forced to come back. When we got back to Taylor's house Joseph was there and he just kept looking at me. Now that I think about it he had been watching me the whole time.
I was exited that he payed attention to me. It was wierd to feel like this, I dont like people especially guys. What was I thinking? I hate people bit here I was falling for some idiot.
We went across the street so Taylor and Joseph could play basketball. I never picked up the ball but I said the most violent things I could think of. I wanted to get his attention, I wanted to impress him.
He was definitely impressing me. He dropped the ball so that it would bounce just enough for him to kick it. It flew across the basketball court and two tennis courts.
I stood there silent in amazement of what he had just done. I would hate to be the asshole who got his ass kicked by joseph. There were a lot of those.
It was starting to get dark and everone was leaving the park. There were no more annoying brats to bug us so we hung out there for a while.
I was listening to my music with headphones and Taylor was doing the same but Joseph had his music playing out loud. He got up and started dancing.
He looked at me weird "do you dance?" He asked. " no I dont do anything unless it causes someone pain. My friends say I don't sport"
He smiled a little bit, then just stared at me like he was studying me, thinking of what to say next. "you should come to one of my parties, you would learn how to dance really fast."
I didn't know how to respond to that so I didn't respond at all. We went back to Taylor's house and Joseph played his music loud on the speakers it was rap, the kind that made your ears bleed but I was so far gone that just because he liked it I did too.
I was gone, that independent bitch that I used to be was gone. I want to be myself again but he had me stuck feeling like a girl, and it made me feel sick.
I put in my headphones and listened to my music hoping that it would distract me from him. It didn't. And every time I looked at him he was looking at me.
He was getting up and his eyes shifted to Taylor. He was about to leave. I took out my headphones to see if he would say bye to me even though he didn't have to.
He looked at Taylor "well I'll see you in about two months" then he turned to me "and for you its an on and off once a year kind of thing" as soon as he said it his expression changed. he looked like he was going to miss me?
