I haven't seen Joseph in a few weeks I miss him and that scared me. I was starting to feel empty again.
For right now all I had were memories. Memories of how when I was laying next to him I felt electric like warmth radiated from him and how I felt so much more important to him when he looked at me and smiled.
when he smiled at me I couldn't breath because he was looking at me so that meant that smile was for me and because of me. And his smile made me smile and feel warm and happy.
And the memory of when someone jumped and made me fall into him because he was in the center of the trampoline. The electric feeling, the warmth radiating from him and the smiles I got from him were so much bigger and there was more of them.
When he pulled me down and I fell in his lap he just smiled bigger like that was exactly what he wanted to happen.or when I was amazed by the way he kicked the ball and far it went. He was amazing. And I was falling for him, I just hope he couldn't tell.
But of course all of those memories were just memories and I missed them they were so amazing but yet, so dangerous because I felt like he could see right through me.
