In pieces - ADULT

Chapter 1 - In Pieces

Rebirthing by Skillet 

I lie here paralytic

Inside this soul

Screaming for you till

My throat is numb

I wanna break out 

I need a way out

I don't believe that its gonna be this way

The worst is

The waiting

In this world I'm suffocating....

My jealous phone alarm is ringing waking me up from my wonderful relationship with my bed..Urgh!! as always no good timing.. I just fell as sleep.. I'm not even sure if I've gotten any sleep.. I still feel so dizzy.. I'm about hit snooze but as usual I'll be running late again.. no dinner ..no coffee.. no nothing..

I opened my phone and there is 3 messages from my girlfriend

Micah..

- Hey love..wake up sleepy head.. Iloveyou.

- I'm cooking now.. I'll bring us some food later ..

- Please don't be late again.. Iloveyou so much..and have me updated..okay??

I gave a tight smile to my phone screen.. She never fails to amaze me, within our 20 months relationship she never changes no matter how rude and mean and irate I am to her. What should I say? I have the best girlfriend in the world...

Dialing her number on the screen.. 

Hello..love? "Yes? She answered. "I'm sorry just woke up, I hardly got some sleep.. I'll go to shower now and leave".

"Okay". she answered on the other line. Will you not have some dinner? What would you like to eat? I can drop by some foods to your station later..yeah? 

No..no..I'm fine.. I'll just go to McDonald's and grab some coffee and dinner.. 

Finally she let go... "If your fine with that, okay". Iloveyou..Imissyou..Micah added my ever sweet and thoughtful girlfriend..

I feel like there is a lump in my throat.. Not that I'm guilty about something but it's just that after my first break up with my first love, first relationship, first girlfriend and first kiss and everything it feels like it lessen my ability to love anymore.. the fact that Mic's is so sweet and so thoughtful is not helping at all sharpening my love skills as how I say it.

"Iloveyou too" I said nonchalantly. ."Bye". I'll see you later in the office.. and I clicked the end button..

I sigh heavily. I slapped my cheeks.. Hoping it's the best solution to all of my problems..