Fearful || Downton Abbey

Part 13: Lady Mary

I stare softly at the sleep Anna in my arms and smile gently. She looks so peaceful and calm, I wish she would look so at ease all the time. Her nightmares plague both of us and I wish I could ease her pain. I gingerly get out of bed and sit by the window. We arrived in France two weeks ago and under the guise of false names, we settled in a small cottage in a remote area. Safe and tucked away and just the pair of us. It's bliss. I rummage through the draws and pull out my sketch pad. I draw Anna, her hair splayed over the pillow, her hand resting on the bed clothes on her rounded stomach and her eyes softly shut. Anna lets out a small sigh and rolls over and I smile widely as she opens her eyes and sleepily grins at me. "Morning love" I mutter and Anna blushes "morning Mary" she replies swinging her feet out of the bed. I capture her lips and she leans into my embrace. I rest my hand on her stomach and grin as I feel a small kick, Anna's hand flies on top of mine and her eyes widen "did you feel that?" She whispers and I nod "it's kicking" Anna mumbles and looks at me with such pride "it's alright" she says her eyes filling with happy tears and I laugh "yes my dear, everything is fine" I state... "Everything is just fine" Anna mutters as she kisses me. She pulls away "I don't want to leave" she says and I frown "what do you mean?" I ask. "I don't want us to go back there." Anna states "I like it here, the freedom and it being just us... I feel safe" "I know my love but we don't have a choice... I wish we could stay here too but we just can't. Mama and Papa would notice if we don't return" I whisper sadly. Anna flashes me a watery smile and grasps my hand "What will happen to us?" she asks and I stare at her "what do you mean?" "Well, we can't be like we are at the moment when we get back home. You'll go back to Lady Mary and I'll just be your servant. We live in different worlds Mary. What will we do about us? What will happen to us?" Anna pushes gently for an answer but I have none. What can I say that will make this any better? There is nothing. She's right, when we return to Downton, she will be just Anna and I'll be her employer. She'll go back to her house with her "husband" and I'll go back to being lonely... "I don't know Anna. I wish I did but I don't" I mutter miserably. Anna embraces me and kisses me gently "Then we must make the most of it being just us" she whispers as she kisses me again. I kiss her back, moaning as she deepens it. She pulls away and looks at me, her face flushed, her hair messy, her eyes filled with love and lust and I slowly pull off my nightgown. I keep eye contact with her until the last moment and gasp as Anna's fingers slip into my corset and loosens it to a point where she could get it off. I throw the gown to one side and kiss her fiercely, she lets out a guttural moan and I feel her hands sliding around my bare waist. She slides her hands up my back, teasing me, I groan with impatience as she sidles her hands round to my bare breasts. Her fingers tease my sensitive buds and I feel wetness slipping down my bare legs. I pull away and watch in awe as Anna slides out of her nightgown. I gently kiss her swollen stomach and work my way up to her heavy breasts. She writhes underneath me as I gently nip them and moans loudly, her hands clutching at my breasts making me moan with her. I kiss her madly, loving the noises emitting from her mouth, before slowly kissing my way down to her legs, which I gently part, keeping eye contact with Anna the entire time, making sure she's alright, which she is because her hips buck wildly underneath my hands and as I gently taste her for the first time, Anna lets out a series of lust filled moans. She quivers beneath me, her hips grinding against me and her hands clutching at the sheets before she finally comes undone, in a messy but beautiful way. Her eyes slowly open and she looks at me tenderly "Gosh!" She mutters in a horse voice, which sends shivers through my body. She beckons me and I follow her wishes. She kisses me ferociously and gently pushes me onto her mouth. I shriek as I feel her tongue enter me and her fingers brush against my sensitive clit. My hips buck against her mouth, begging for more and I slowly feel the sensation of bliss creeping up from my stomach, which explodes suddenly and takes me away from Anna into another world. I come down from my high and see Anna grinning at me from between my legs. I slide off her and kiss her "I love you Anna" I say, as tears fill my eyes she kisses them away as the roll down my cheeks "Don't cry Mary" she whispers gently "We'll be alright. I love you, we will make this work" she says and in that moment, I almost believe her...