I'M SORRY BUT I'M IN LOVE WITH MY BESTFRIEND

XVII- Family Dinner

Lisa

Silence engulf us....awkward atmosphere that seems to suffocate me...

I had enough...my body always react like this...and for me it's tiring already...

They must see that I'm not affected anymore...but my body failed to show it....I can never be strong in front of her...she's my weakness....

It made me weak...I'm weak in front of her...in front of them....

My worst nightmare just came true, a family dinner......

With the Sangreals...

Yes, they are my Family...but we never treated each other like that. It's like being a Manoban and a Sangreal at the same time is an obligation.

'They never treated me like a family member'.

Yes, it's always been them, the two lady in front of me are treating each other like they supposed to..like a Family?. ..but me? Never.

When I was 14, Mom left me to my Grandparents while she continue to work hard for her dream, I understood her that time. But she came back with another man and a daughter. Knowing she had them before us... That broke me...I thought she cheated then...I remember something.

I was 7 at that time, I discovered that she and my Father got divorce. At a young age, I never knew what will happen. Besides, They continued living together, they thought that living in the same roof would be better for me because they still want me to have a complete family; they choose to hide it from me.

Well at 9, I  already knew back then that they will never come back together, days passed it became worse because  Dad always went home drunk they will always fight, break things and shooed each other away... but mom? She never cared, she left us once and came back only after a year that's when Dad......he died. Afterwards she never talked to me unless it's Business. She never showed up to my awarding ceremonies or graduation. For me, It's okay if she'll never come to any of it but what hurts me more when I knew that she went to all my sister's  event.

"Did she just left me to my grandparents for her to marry again? To have a complete family?" That's what I thought when I was young. But his husband and my half sister treated me well, her family isn't bad though, her daughter and me linked well. We became best buddies. Bestfriends

That's why in high school, We went on the same University, I thought it will be fine then, but it only became our battle ground. Even though she won't say it, I knew she felt threatened by me. But instead of competing against me, she gave up and supported me.

The best big sister you could ever have.

Even though she's older than me...

"We are inseparable" I smirked at the thought.

Yes we are inseparable at that time. I always thought that it would stay like that forever.

Like any other big sisters out there, she became the best person I have, she became my bestfriend, my sunshine, my shield; she always protected me..from danger and from...her....mom, she knows all of my weaknesses and of course, my capabilities and strengths. We became each other's . We are better together, I looked up to her, she's always been the best. Even though, she gave all opportunities and chances to me, she didn't care. She said she wants me to shine brighter than her, she said she will be my shadow as I reach for my star. She said she will always be there when I need her. And she did.