gilinskys little sister (n.m)

twenty

claras pov

nate hasn't been here in almost two months.

and my body is just getting worse and with out him here i'm starting to believe i'm gonna die.

i miss his smile.

i miss him making me laugh when my cancer is the worst.

i miss.

him.

the nurse comes in and i down my pills like usual.

evelyn comes and says hi to me before she goes to school every day.

that makes me smile. that someone loves me.

i go in the bathroom and see my thoroughly bald head.

i shrug and head back to bed.

the doctor comes in with a smile on his face.

"clara i've got some good news." he says and i lay my head back down not caring.

"one, your leukemia's getting better and today theirs a party for teens just like you on the roof and now that your getting better, you can go." he says.

"i don't know." i say.

he nods and walks away.

i lay back on the bed that i've been in forever.

and fall asleep.
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i wake up and look at the time.

the party doctor jones talked about started 20 minutes ago.

then i think about it.

nate is happy, and about to marry melanie and i'm bummed out sitting here like usual.

i'm going to that party.

i get up and head to my bag of clothes and pick out a rainbow tube top and a pair of high waisted jeans and a pair of vans.

i put a bandanna over my mostly bald head and put on a little makeup.

final look:

i grab my bag and head to elevator and and press the roof button.

as the door opens, i see a bunch of teens just like me.

i head over to the drink table and grab a water bottle and turn around but run in to a chest.

i look up and see a cute boy about my age.

"omg, i'm so sorry!" i say.

"it's fine, i'm charlie by the way." he says.

"i'm clara." i say and smile.
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"thank you for tonight, it's been a while since i've had a friend." i say as we stand in front of my room.

he smiles and comes closer and places his lips on mine.

i kiss back and he places his hand on my waist.

i push us apart and he looks at me confused.

"i have to tell you one thing first." i say and he nods.

"i have a kid." i say.

that's subtle.

"i don't care, i just wanna sleep with you." he says.

my heart sinks.

"wow. for once i thought i met a nice guy for once and you just had to be an asshole like every other guy." i say.

except nate. well before he left me and evelyn.

he shrugs and walks away.

i run in my room and slide in my bed and pull the covers over me.

i feel tears coming but nothing runs down my face.

i've cried so many tears. theirs no tears left to cry.

(@arianagrande lol)

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i'm sorry this chapter is so short but the next chapter, a lot will happen lol