Melancholy Blues

Open Book

After he left I didn't really know what to do with myself. I just stayed in the bed for a while to wrap my head around everything. So soon but I could never see myself not around this man again. I smiled to myself.

Eventually I decided that I needed to get ready. I go to take a shower and turn on the water and just sit crisscrossing my legs in the tub letting the water hit me. Trying to let it wash away all of the past feelings and troubles. I can start over. With someone like that I will do whatever it takes.

When I finished showering I went up and started going through my things all stuffed in my large suitcase. I pull out a dress I've only worn once years ago. It was black with fitted sleeves that went to my elbow. And fitted on top until it went to my hips where it fanned out into large pleats. I combed my hair and started putting on makeup. I started to get nervous. I still didn't know what to expect. My hands started to get shaky. When I was finally ready I went back to lay on the bed. My heart was pounding. What if he actually didn't come back...it had already been two hours..every second that passed seemed to take longer and longer and the longer that it took for him to come back the more afraid I got. I got up and started pacing. Back and forth. I just couldn't sit still. I wish I had asked more questions. Through all of this I caught a glance of myself in a mirror..oh no...I had realized that in this dress..you could see all of the scars..the fresh and the old..the bruises. How embarrassing. I can't let people see me like this. With all of this shame. I ran to my suitcase. I found black tights and a cardigan. I just had to cover up everything. All of the past. It's time for the future. I can't let my past mistakes be seen. Maybe Freddie didn't even remember? Maybe I can just keep hiding it. We both had quite a bit to drink last night. As I rushed to put everything on and I heard struggling at the door knob. Suddenly Freddie burst into the room. "Darling I'm back!!" He ran up to me with a gleaming smile and practically tackling me. He started covering my face with quick soft kisses. "That felt like forever! I hope you weren't too bored without me!" Freddie said holding my chin with his thumb and index finger while nuzzling my nose side to side with his. I'm so happy to see him I can't even speak. I just keep looking at his face. The butterflies had finally returned and were dancing around my stomach. He quickly picked me up and pulled us down onto the bed burying his face where my neck meets my shoulder.
F:"Are you okay love? You've barely said a thing"
V: "y-yes I'm okay..now I'm fine. I guess while you were gone I let myself get too stuck in my head..I was afraid you wouldn't come back..wondering what you were doing..what you were thinking". He lifted his head from my neck and frowned at me. "You didn't trust me to come back to you? Violet, when I said I was falling for you it was the truth. ...I was afraid to come back and find you gone..this was fate that we found each other. I've been falling so fast for you..walking on clouds. I couldn't just turn my back on that. I need to know more..find out what happens next." He spoke softly and quietly. My face flushed. My heart pounding so loud I swear he could hear it clear as day. I forced words out of my mouth"I need this Freddie...I need you. I'm just one night you've given me hope..made me believe that there is more out there. More to live for. As long as I have you with me I know everything will be fine. Not even fine. When I see your face and hear your voice...everything is amazing."  Freddie grabs me and kisses me hard. I lean back and pull him on top of me while still not breaking contact with his lips. I run my hands up his chest feeling the exposed skin under his half buttoned shirt. He unbuttons it and years it off throwing it aside. I let my fingers feel around his waist. Stroking his back and feeding his breathing get heavier. He breaks our kiss to start leaving small kisses on my cheek making his way down to my neck he starts gently licking from the side of my neck almost to my ear. I can hear his breathing and I'm mesmerized by the sound. He takes me off guard with a short fast lick and then he bites my neck making me gasp. The mix of pleasure and pain has my mind spinning with need. He's biting still but gently begins to suck. It's amazing. I dig my fingernails into his back holding him in place. He lets out a quiet moan as I feel his hand kneading my breasts and slowly making its way to my middle. I start to get nervous. This time I'm sober and I feel my confidence waning. I begin to tense up and Freddie stops right away and sits up. "Is everything alright darling?" He says breathless Looking concerned.
V:"It's just daytime now...I'm afraid you're going to see..Well me..and I'm afraid you won't like what you see."  I clutched the opening of my cardigan trying to close it more but his hands stopped me. "You don't need to hide from me..I don't want to hide from you..there is nothing you could show me to change my mind darling" he gave me the most sincere look. His eyes smoldering and dark. I melted just by him looking at me. I let him take off my cardigan. There is is..there they are. That's it. It's going to be too much. Freddie took a long pause looking at my arms. I wanted him to say something so bad but I was too nervous to let any words out. Finally Freddie takes my hands in his. I didn't know what to do. I felt like his puppet moving with him. He pulled my arms close to his lips. I closed my eyes not knowing what to do. Not knowing what he would do. He slowly and gently began to kiss every cut and scar on my arms. Tears began streaming down his face the further he got. I started crying too.  I expected rejection but received tenderness. My heart was so full. "I didn't remember this last night.. don't ever want you to do this shit again Violet..I want to make it so you never feel the need to." V: "I won't need to with you" I get up on my knees and sit on his lap facing him with my legs on either side of him. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him and he meets it holding the back of my head with both hands. I pull him on top of me and lick his neck as he did mine giving tiny kisses before biting his neck and sucking. He inhaled sharply and his body shuddered. With his left hand he started reaching for the zipper behind my dress as his right hand is now between my legs making soft strokes up and down. I felt myself starving with anticipation. I reach down and pull down my tights. Freddie marveled at the newly exposed skin. "Fuck...here too?" He frowned at me. I looked down so ashamed and covered my face with my hands. I felt one of his fingers run a line from my knee to my hip. There was a small pause and then I felt the warmth of his tongue giving small licks and then kisses all over my thighs. He started kissing my inner thighs moving closer to my middle and I could feel myself just melting with every touch. A long lick from my inner knee all the way up left me breathless. I felt him gently tugging at my parties as he looked up at me making puppy dog eyes. I help him take them off and he meets me a short quick kiss. He then goes to whisper in my ear "the dress too" and I immediately oblige sitting up and pulling the dress down and off. Freddie is patting the pillows gesturing me to lay down. While I listen, Freddie is getting in front of me facing me on his hands and knees. He starts licking and kissing my inner thighs again starting at my knees but this time with more force and passion. He finally reaches my middle and I try to close my legs. He lifts his head up. "Is everything okay darling?"
V: "it's just I'm..I've never..done..this exactly." He flashed a wide devilish grin. "Really?.....Well let's change that shall we?" Raising his eyebrows at the question. I have a small nod and gave the sensitive skin tiny kisses that made my body tremble. His tongue parted my lips and found my clit and I found it hard to even breathe. I couldn't even keep my eyes open. His mouth and tongue felt wet and warm in the best way. Every touch radiating passion and spark. His tongue would move fast in circles and then up and down agonizingly slow with pressure. I could feel his breath on my skin breathing shakily. It was amazing. I couldn't speak. Only short shy sighs and small moans of pleasure were able to escape my mouth. He slowly started to push one finger inside of me and I could feel my eyes rolls back by their own accord behind closed lids. He pulled his finger in and out slowly as his other hand traveled up my body to reach my breast grasping a handful and teasing my nipple with his thumb and index finger. I pressed his hand at my breast closer as my other hand found its way into his hair holding his head onto me desperate for him to keep going. I could feel him smile. He pushed in another finger and started a come here motion inside of me. My breath began to grow faster as I felt a warm tingling quickening coming from Freddie's work. My body shaking I try to stop him, not knowing what was happening but couldn't speak the words. Tears streamed down my face as blissful ecstasy washed over me as I called his name in between breaths. He speeds up every motion causing my back to arch. I slowly feel my high coming down and my body relaxes allowing me to catch my breath. With one last long slow lick he brings his head up. He has the biggest smile showing his teeth and his eyes are lit up like glittering stars. He gazes down at me seeing the pleasure that he brought.
He comes up and lays next to me kissing my forehead. "How was that dear?" He purred
"Amazing" I say still trying to catch my breath "That's never happened..ever..I've never felt anything like that before. ...Last night was the first time ..Only with you. " He couldn't stop smiling "what do you mean? .......An orgasm? ....You've never had one before?"  I shake my head shyly.
His smile still beaming "Well it was my pleasure-I mean your pleasure." He puts an arm around my waist and I put my hand behind his head and bring him in to kiss me. He breaks our kiss to whisper in my ear "I hope you aren't done yet darling." His words sent chills through my body. I reach down to stroke his visibly hard cock through his pants. "No Freddie I need you...I need more...take them off" He looks at me eyes dark with lust and bites his bottom lip. "As you wish darling."He gets up off of the bed and undoes his belt and slowly takes his pants off. His body is gorgeous like a gods. He crawls back into bed with me. He positions himself in front of me in between my legs. He reaches out and takes a breast in each hand gently grasping them. He leans down and takes my nipple in his mouth and gently begins to suck, playing with it with his tongue, occasionally giving tiny bites. I'm shuddering with anticipation as I can feel his throbbing erection on my thigh. He gives one last deep suck then releases my nipple with a puckering sound.
F:"Ready?"
" yes yes please" I whisper shakily. He grasps his cock positioning it at my opening sliding it up and down playing with my clit. He began to push in slowly as a "mmmmmm" sound groaned from him. "You know love I've been waiting for this all day" he whispered breathily. When he was fully in he thrusted slowly almost pulling all the way out with each delicious stroke. He grabbed my thighs and brought my knees up to my chest and began thrusting harder. It's amazing. Every second is pure bliss. My hands at his biceps holding onto him. I begin to feel the familiar quickening tingle again. "God you're so tight baby, ..you're gonna make me cum". His breathing is hard. His grip on my legs begins to tighten. His words send me cascading over the edge as I drown in another orgasm swallowing me whole. I try to stifle my moans but still couldn't help crying his name. His thrusts become harder but are becoming coming slower. "I-I'm gonna..where do I?" His voice was low and raspy. I push on his chest and he pulls out. He's panting and his eyes are closed right. I get down and suck the head of his cock in my mouth. "Oh fuck....mmm" he groans as I suckle the tip. I feel him grab a handful of my hair shakily. I can taste precum dripping slowly. I suck and bob up and down as I feel his body trembling. I take all of him in my mouth and him all the way back up. He releases into me as I suck and play with him with my tongue.
He crashes onto the bed with long deep breaths. "God darling. That mouth is truly a godsend". I snuggle up next to him and he takes me in his arms holding me tight. He strokes my cheek with his thumb and leans close to gently kiss me.

With a long sigh he says reluctantly "Well I suppose we should get ready to go?"