CROSSROADS

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. -Jessie J

Follow your heart.. a lot of people tend to say. But what if my heart is actually the one causing every pain I feel now and then? Should I still follow it?

Some people say follow your mind instead. It thinks but the heart doesn't. Your mind may tell you the right thing to do, but your heart tells you what you want, others say.

But the heart wouldn't function without the brain, would it?

Cause some things are meant to be together even if they are far apart.

Like pizzas and their boxes.. They don't look like they're meant for each other but they fit perfectly more than anything.

But all these things just caused more confusion for me.

Life's an unfair piece of maze. You can start it but it's too damn hard to finish. No matter how desparate you get to finishing it, you find yourself stuck in a very messy situation. You get a set of choices and end up failing to pick one. And when you pick one, it's not the smartest idea.

I find it hard to actually think of solutions that could make my life potentially better than I'm rocking it today. Like the way I'm staring at my trigonometry teacher hoping to find a solution to actually pass this class in a jiffy.

Life's unfair. Life's complicated.

But we somehow managed to live it for the years we've spent on this planet. Oh how I wish I was a mutant, an alien, or just someone who had telepathy powers.

Time's life consuming and I hate it. Others would want to have a controller to bring back time and fix the mess they've made. Yet here I am not wanting to do the same thing they want. I want a time machine that could transfer myself to some time of the future where my life's actually living worthy.

And then I met him.

Some guy I met that actually understood me. Someone who helped me lift up the bags. Someone I've been wanting ever since I was born.

We're like two negative integers multiplied. Our negativity had actually caused something positive for once. We made each other's lonely gray skies to blue ones. Frowns turned to smiles. And caused the crinkling of the sides of our eyes. The dimples that marked our cheeks with a short sign of glee.

But being together didn't only cause a wide variety of happiness. Apparently happiness lasts. Just like how I wished my life did. It's like our sunny days suddenly had a thunderstorm. Like our teacher saying there's a surpise quiz out of the blue.

Once you add two negative integers it makes a bigger negative. We have different opinions, beliefs and everything. That's where all hell breaks loose.

So I don't exactly know how our lives suddenly became crossroads.