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The break of my shell

In front of my door I could hear two people going to the bathroom.

Taeil was probably back but he couldnt stop this mess in my head.

My eyes were still open and got dry.

He pulled his arms away from me. Trembling and breathless, he stared at me or my lips.

For at least 2 minutes.

I coughed loud but he sat there like a statue.

Normally I wouldve kicked his ass out of my room but..

he looked sad.. almost lonely. And yet he was never really alone.

Like now.

A thousand things revolved in my mind.

Why has he done that ..

What did just happened ..

Am I stupid? ..

Why did I let something like that go through? ..

I forgot everything around me. "Wha..what..what..what was that.."

I gave up my mouth. Zico twitched for a moment as if someone had torn him from sleep.

Suddenly his eyes met me deeper than usual. My heart began to pulsate.

Pity and rage came up in me.

"WHAT WAS THAT I ASKED!" I yelled at him.

His pupils were shaking when he unexpectedly let his face fall into his hands.

"Im sorry .." he said ".. so so sorry .."

He stood up and I could face a slight sob.

As he stood there .. I never thought that he can seem so fragile.

I pulled the blanket away from my legs and got out of the bed.

"Zico, why did you do that? .." ".."

"Huh .. if its one of your jokes again then-"

"No. .." "But?" "No 'but' .."

I couldnt judge him easy.

"..dont be..too angry." "Too late."

I sucked on my lips and looked to the ground. On and on until I saw his feet.

He was barefoot. What a rag.

"Listen .. it doesnt really matter to me.. anymore..

why you did this. So please just leave.."

He looked over at me. His face became timeless.

I was petrified because it got me more than I knew.

"Ah- So .. what I mean is .. you should go now, not .. not forever!"

He smiled and said "Youre so weird.. Irina..."

He came closer and I went back a few steps.

What has he planned now? I must .. I must get my hormones under control .. it is .. it is because were alone! Exactly! ..

Broom, where are you..

His body was so close to me that I could feel his heart pounding.

I tried to look up to him.

But he was faster than me and held my face gently with his hand up.

"You make me .. crazy."

"Crazy... w-why?"

I was confused. Is he ill or something?

"You idiot .." He said to me "You just dont take me serious enough.."

Jackson said the fucking same thing.. maybe this all is a prank, what the hell..

"Zico stop kidding around so much!” My tone was harsh.

"Im not kidding.." This time it was his voice that sounded lonely.

"But?" "I .." a moment of rest.

"I think .. Im going to fall." "To fall ?!Thats why you kissed me?! How ironic is that!"

I slapped my hand over my mouth but he didnt mind ..

in fact, he putted his lips on mine for the second time.

But this time it was harder.

Because he pressed my head to his and everything around me vanished.

I wanted to reach out .. but at the taste of his lips, my feelings that I couldnt control and the dance of his tongue ..

I just closed my eyes and responded to his kiss by putting my arms around his waist and pulling his upper body closer to me.

I kinda.. wanted to feel his warmth.