repressed feelings

new year

Blakes pov

I get ready for the second year of high school and am not looking forward to it as during the first year i was given the title of quiet emo girl and was treated as if talking to me would get you killed so after a while i just stopped talking entirely "blake sweetie its time to go" mom says and i walk to the car "are you ready" she asks and i nod getting in we then drive to school "try to make some friends" she says and i give her a look "please just try" she asks and i get out of the car heading to my first class where i take a seat at the back before any other students get there and as they fill in they all avoid my table and just as i think nothing was changing a girl i have never seen before walks in "can i sit here" she asks me and i give her a confused look "imma take that as a yes" she says sitting next to me i figure she must be new so i decide its best i don't talk to her as to not ruin her reputation i listen as the teacher drones on for an hour then gives us free time "what's your name" the girl asks and i ignore her pulling out a book she grumbles for a second before pulling out a sketchbook and drawing in it i assume she gave up so i go back to reading until class ends and i head to the next one where i find the same girl sitting next to me again "guess we have two classes together" she says and i get out a peice of paper and write on it you should sit with someone else i write on it passing it to her "what why" she asks and i pull the paper back if people think you're friends with me they won't talk to you so i would talk with the paper i write why do people not want to be friends with you she writes something along the lines of i am quiet and read a lot so i am emo and will attack i write that's ridiculous she writes just wait someone will probably warn you not to talk to me as soon as we are not in the same class i write that's ridiculous she rights well just to make it easier for you ill stop talking to you i write before going back to reading she seems to pout before going back to drawing and class finishes and i head to lunch grabbing my food and sitting in the corner of the lunchroom where i pick up a conversation "ruby don't talk to her she hasn't spoken for more than a year being friends with her is social suicide" a tall blonde says "well i don't want to be friends with people who are that mean for no reason" the girl from before says told ya i think to myself and the two continue to argue while i eat my food then i head to my third class that doesn't have the girl in it making me relieved at least one class is free so i spend the whole class enjoying the silence until the bell rings and i walk to my next class sitting down seeing the girl again i try to hide "you can't hide i already saw you" she says and i sigh pulling out a piece of paper i told you so i write what do you mean she writes i told you someone would tell you not to talk to me i write that was my sister and i told her that we are already friends and there is nothing she can do about it she writes who said we're friends i write well if you don't think we're friends ill have to try harder she writes before going back to her sketchbook continuing to draw making sure i can't see i look around and see the blonde girl who i guess is her sister staring holes trough me so i decide its best to avoid eye contact what's your name the girl writes its blake i write back alright blake im ruby she writes before seeming to finish her drawing carefully pulling it out "it's for you" she says handing me the drawing and i see its a very good drawing of me making me smile thank you that's amazing i write and she seems excited "you smiled" she says excited don't get used to it i write "oh im gonna get used to it" she says then the bell rings "well see you tomorrow" she says and i walk off going to my moms car "how was school" she asks and i shrug "so what's this" she asks grabbing the drawing from my hand looking at it "someone named ruby drew you and it seems they find you attractive" mom says in a joking tone and i give her an annoyed look taking the picture back "im just messing with you im just glad you found a friend" she says and i nod "now we just need you to talk again" she says and i give her an angry look "hey im not forcing you to i just want my baby back" she says and i sit down defeated until we get home where i walk to my room and pin the drawing to my wall smiling at it