Hunter leads me out to the woods. The familiar setting of the trees and the scent of the earth as Hunter held my hand while his other hand is holding his phone.
"Wait.. Is this what I think it is?" I excitedly asks. Hunter chuckled then nodded.
"Wow. I haven't been here for a while." I murmured under my breath.
Its as if in swift motion, I was stunned by the view. It hadn't change much in my view but it is now covered with so much trees since I've been here. It feels like I've never been here, like this is new to me.
Hunter decided to lead me to the grass side of the lake where we could use the benches to sit. Somehow, I just realized this was the first time I didn't let the weight of the world stop me in awe, but still there are the pieces that I can't actually scape.
"My mom and I used to come here. A lot." Hunter turned to me smiling. "We would set our alone time here. She would always bring foods and she would scolds me for I was always running. " he continues on and on about her mother. I know she misses her, Hunter was only seven when her mother died and since then, he says Dean-his father never dated, well, not at least now.
"And well, when Dad said he was dating your mother, believe me I was mad. Super mad. I didn't even came home for three days. But when I was approaching my Mom's grave I realized, its for the best and Dad is happy with her so I guess I should try to adjust." He says not looking at me.
I sigh and just stare at the water. I chew the inside of my cheek as Hunter moved. His words are so.. Well, it may or may not changed my perspective in life. But the difference is that, it isn't even one year and Mom decided to marry. I understand that she needed back her happiness and so I am, so is my sister, so is the world. She could've at least try to control her hormones.
"I don't think you know the reason why I don't talk." I said to him. Hunter looks at me.
"Yeah?"
I nodded. "My Dad just died three months ago."
Hunter's eyes give me sympathy. "Well, I kinda know that."
"Do you?"
"Yeah. Dad told me before." Hunter answered. "And I know that its wrong, one more thing why I was against of this marriage thing."
"And do you understand now?" I asked again.
"No I don't. " Hunter replied. I stared at him. "You see, what you're doing doesn't help anything. You only make it steady, like a heartbeat." He says.
"I only make it steady because I don't want change, I am not ready. " I tell him, looking at his eyes.
"Yeah, I understand you're not. But, would your father rather like this? That you aren't talking and communicating well with your mother?"
"Don't get my father in between this. " I glare at him. It isn't right for him to talked my father in between. It is not just because of my father why I keep my space much to other people's presence.
"Then help us understand." his eyes were almost as if pleading, "Help ME understand."
"Why do you even care anyways?" I snapped.
He remained silent. I nodded, "That's what I thought."
I walked away from him. Away from the lake. I don't know whether to be happy that someone has to say to my actions or that to be mad that someone has some nerve to put up with me.
Yes, I know. It is wrong to accused people with uncertain reasons. But its all because of them that I realized that whatever I do, its still the same. The people around me will leave me.
And I get it. They don't love me enough for them to stay yet they chose to left.
I arrived at the truck, not a minute after, Derek came back. I can't look at him or talk to him, he knows me too well and I hate it. For these days, I was used to be alone, creating reasons for myself to stay where I am and not letting anyone else's presence come near me. For I know, they'll hurt me in the end.
I've been hurt too much.
"..here." I couldn't fully understand what Hunter says.
"What?" I asked irritated.
"I said, were here." he got out in the car first and I then realized, we were in the home.
I rolled my eyes and got out. I didn't hear any noises behind me so I am assuming that Hunter didn't follow me.
I was mad.
Way to ruin my day.
