Shattered

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I woke up to my annoying alarm clock once again I slowly got out of bed .
I took a shower as the water hit my wrist I winced in pain .
After I finished I got out of the shower brushed my teeth and did my makeup after that I walked to my closet and picked out an outfit

(Outfit above)

Today I decided to walk to school I stoped
by the park at sat on the bench.
I looked at the beautiful view I always loved sitting right on this bench and thinking about everything sometimes I think about how life would be if I wasn't such a pathetic broken bitch and I was more like Riley she has everything a family the best friends anyone could ask for I want that but I never will have any of it

I looked into my bag and grabbed my cigarettes I took one out then I took out my lighter
I exhale the nicotine filling my lungs it realised all the stress

My thoughts where interrupted by loud laughter I turned my head and saw my old friend group I turned my head back around and exhaled once again and breathed out I didn't even realise that tears escaped my eyes I Quickly wiped them away

"Maya from when do you smoke !" A very familiar shocked voice asked from behind me

Riley.

"Form when is it your business " I said back a little rude but at this point I didn't care

" Maya what are you doing you shouldn't do that can kill you !" She shouted

"Yeah like I care or you, Yeah from when all of you care about me I'm just a pathetic useless whore !"I screamed back leaving everyone speechless

"Maya please don't cry your Maya Hart remember Maya Hart is strong " Farkle said softly while wrapping his hands around me I push him back slowly whipping my tears away I grabbed my back and said "Don't dare say anything at school I'm just a worthless pathetic bitch that no care about anyway " and with that I walked away leaving them to think

I finally got to school I took a big breath and walked in all eyes on me some boys whistled but I didn't care all you could hear is the clicking of my high heels
I opened my locker took everything I need and walked into Mathews class I sat in my normal seat waiting for everyone to arrive

After a while everyone came in and so did Mr Mathews he wrote something on the bored
" shattered!" He said looking at me

" it takes one event to shatter a broken person I know what you think I broken person is already shattered, well a broken person has scars but they hold together but an little event can break them, shatter them " he said looking me dead in the eye

" what are you playing Mathews ?" I asked raising my eyebrows

"Me I am not playing anything but what about you Maya ?"

I was silent

" do know someone who's breaking ? "

Zay lifted his hand and everyone looked at him

"Yes zay " Mathews said

" I know someone that's breaking and I'm telling you don't want to be there when she does she will be like a grenade she now is shattered and she grew those walls that thought would protect her but once she let one person in it broke her and once again she's breaking and you don't want to see when she does " zay says softly looking at me and then at Mr Mathews

"Zay who are you talking about " farkle asked

Smakle rased her hand and mr Mathews nodded

"I think what he's trying to say that, that person was broken but someone picked her up but being shattered is way worse because she won't let you in so easy because this time she built those walls even higher and from outside the walls look perfectly fine but in side they are shattered and she will burst and I think part of her already did " smakle says with her gaze on me I break it and look at my lap

" who are you guys talking about " Lucas asked while looked at Riley who has a very cunfused look on her face

"Maya do you want to add something?"
Mathews asked

" that girl was broken before and now she is shattered and if you broken twice it's way worst than it was the first time and like they say you can't fix something twice and that girl is so scared and confused but she's fine she's always okay " at this point my eyes started to sting

"Maya are you okay ?" Smakle asked the only one who saw a tear fall from my eye

" Smakle I'm always okay don't worry " I said with a sad smile on my face

And finally the bell rang

Saved by the bell I thought as I left the class

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Sorry about any spelling errors hope you enjoy and sorry for not up dating

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