Heartland second chances

Chapter thirteen

We sit awkwardly in a tense silence while Lou starts the car. I have never ever seen her this angry before.

" Why did you do that?" When she finally speaks it comes out sad, not angry. I hang my head and blink back tears.
" I don't know," my voice comes out a whisper.

" You betrayed all of the trust I had in you, not mention that you sneaked out for a damn party although you were grounded, are grounded," she corrects herself.

" Because of this, youre now grounded for a month. You can only leave to go to school and care for the horses. They shouldn't suffer because of your irresponsibility. You can't ride except your truck riding team and only because it's not fair to them to suffer consequences of you're mistakes."

" You can't hang out with friends, you need to come home straight after school and you will give me your phone." She says. " Understood?" I nod. " Alright, we'll finish this conversation tomorrow when I have time to think."

The rest of the drive is spent in silence. Don't cry, don't cry,
I chant to myself. A month of being grounded. A whole month.

I know it's no use arguing, it'll just make things worse. Lou parks the car and I quickly step out, navigating the snow in my heels. Amy's standing on the porch as I walk up the steps and I can feel her disappointment in me. It cuts like a knife.

I walk past her and into the house where I kick off my heels. " they shouldn't suffer because of your irresponsibility," Lou's words play in my head.

Why do I have to always be such a disappointment, always hurting the ones around me, always making mistakes, and always running from them.

It's time to run again. I can't hurt people around me anymore. I need to leave. I hurriedly grab my bag from my closet and start shoving clothes into it, not caring which ones.

There's a burn in my chest as I glance around Marion's old room which was my room.

I finish packing my clothes and then wait for everyone to fall asleep. Heartland was supposed to be a place where I didn't mess up. It was supposed to be a place I could stay forever. But of course I messed it up like I mess everything up.

I slide the window open and step out. I have no idea where I'm going. What about phenix? Should I take him? I decide against it because Amy and Ty will hear me open the barn.

I climb over the fence and wish there wasn't any damn snow. After thinking a while I began to head to Jacks old fishing cabin. I can stay there until I figure something out.

The moon shines onto the snow, casting an eerie glow.

I'm deep in thought as I walk, and I don't notice the deep gulley in front of me. I plunge over the edge. My bag flies from my hands and rolls down the steep hill. A tangled root scrapes my back as I tumble down, heed over heels.

And then there's darkness. Fog seems to swirl before my eyes as I struggle to sit up. My head throbs, my back feels like it's on fire and I can't move my leg.

It's swelling fast and I think it's broken. I reach around for my bag but don't find it. A shiver runs through me when I hear wolves howling not too far away.

How did I mess this up as well? Who knows how long I'll be stuck here and I don't have my damn phone because Lou took it.

The pounding in my head takes over and I black out again. When I wake up again it's at least ten degrees colder. " Mom? Help me," I mumble.

" So cold...." my voice trails off as I'm welcomed back to the land of darkness. " others shouldn't suffer because of you're irresponsibility," Lou's voice seems to taunt me.

An image flashes through my head, my dad leaving me and my mom and my mom taking me to a foster family. She promised to come back. My chest tightens and I gasp for air.

There's a house in front of me and someone's screaming. Or so I thought, but I'm hallucinating I guess.

The person stops screaming, but I still hear voices in my head. Blackness engulfed me again and I welcome it.

Double update! In case you're confused, she hit her head and is now having hallucinations and she's remembering the past. So yeah