recovery - ethma

chapter five

emmas pov

"sooo, how was the kiss?" james asked.

"you were awake?" shit. i didn't know he wasn't sleeping.

"um yea, i woke up to you guys laughing and splashing water like four year olds." he said.

"you can't tell grayson, not yet."

"i won't, but you guys should."

"i don't even know what's going on myself, shouldn't i talk about this with ethan first before i say anything?"

honestly, i don't know what's going on.

"probably, but how would i know?" james replied and we both laughed.

we talked for awhile and went back to sleep.

i woke up to someone screaming.

"E!"

it was grayson.

"ETHAN!"

james also woke up.

"what's going on?" he asked.

"i don't know."

"he didn't tell grayson about the kiss did he?" james looked at me.

"oh shit!" i got up and ran to ethans room.

grayson was sitting on ethans bed while ethan was lying in his bed. they were both on their phones.

"what happened?" i asked confused.

james walks in.

"why did you scream, you woke me up." he said.

"they just released coachella artists and tame impala is perfoming!!" grayson basically screamed.

"oh fuck you." james said laughing.

as we all were eating we tried to decide what videos we wanted to film.

i had already filmed my vlog througout our sleepover so i only had to pull an all-nighter to edit it. james said he wanted to go with the sister squad q&a and after awhile we agreed to do that.

after 12 hours we finally finished filming. it was late so me & james decided to go home.

i went to my bedroom and opened my computer so i could start editing. i had been editing for about twenty minutes when i hear my phone beep. it was ethan.

ethan: you editing?

emma: yea, i have to post this tomorrow

ethan: can i come over?

emma: i guess

to be honest i'm kinda nervous since we haven't talked about our little moment yet.

after awhile i hear my doorbell ring. it was ethan. i opened the door and let him in. we went to my bed so i could continue editing.

"e, what are we gonna do?" i asked

"i don't know." ethan was just as confused as i was

"maybe the kiss didn't even mean anything. maybe we're just good friends" he continued.

"just good friends? is that really what you think of me?"

"no." he said calmly.

"look i'm sorry. obviously it meant something or i wouldn't be here right now. i just can't help but feel like i betrayed grayson. and as much as i don't want to admit it, i do have feelings for you emma. i always did."

i didn't say anything because i didn't really know what to say. instead i smiled at him.

"i think we should tell grayson before james slips it out." i said.

we both laughed a little.

"i'll tell him" i told ethan.

"no. i think i should." ethan said.

i finished my editing when ethan was already asleep. it was 4am. i think grayson thinks ethan is home so i woke him up and told him to leave.

it was tuesday. a few hours till we all would post our videos. i don't know why but i'm nervous. i always get nervous filming them but never posting, until now. i guess i never had anything to hide before this.