10 Reasons to live...

The Cliff

This is scary, It is higher than I had imagined it. C'mon you have rehearsed it multiple times in your mind, you can do it, I kept on encouraging myself to do this. I have no hopes to live what am I still standing for. Just jump...
Yes jump from that cliff. Swallowed saliva down my throat for the last time in my life. I used to believe that people who suicide are coward but now I totally can relate to them. I am one of them now. Trying to finish my life, blowing everything at once.
Flushing all thoughts, lets get back to the business, I am jumping off this cliff today, at this very moment, finishing it one for all. Holding my tears in red eyes, grabbing all my guts I took one foot off the ground towards the deep dark cliff. About to jump,

Felt something pulled me holding my sweater sleeve. What's that, I was up there to jump, then what just happened..trying to figure out with my blurry vision with tears. Two hands were around my waist, that was tight grip,I cleaned my tears using my same sleeve through which I just got spared of jumping.
Clearing vision got my eyes locked with those dark big eyes. Wait I know this face, Is this david joseph, yes the famous david from our class. What is he doing here, My heart was beating fast so as his breath was running.

Are you mad!! You would've fell,He said. Thats what I was trying to do, I said pushing him away from me.

Don't keep standing here you are wasting your time and mine. Anyhow I have to jump, it's really hard to find this moment when no one is watching, I have to jump could you please leave or you want to witness me jumping and dying down the cliff.

No, I can't let this happen. I'm not letting you go down there via jump atleast, if you wish we can go for a walk. He said, He thought this would be humourous.
I can't answer this stupidity. My Mr. Brain decided not to say a word and continued to reach my position back to the cliff to jump.
He pulled me again, this time grip was tighter than last.
Why do you care, you don't even know me..I asked. While trying to push him away.

You are jessie, my classmate, last bench silent girl, He screamed.. which made me stop pushing him for a while.
That's it, great.. please let me die peacefully, there is nothing left to live for, I again started pushing him away.

I'll give you reason to live. Please don't jump, jessie.. please .. he said
That gaze, was something that made me feel momentarily that no I'm not useless, someone wants me to live, I shambled my eyes and tried to get pragmatic about what life I am into and it still is going to be same.

But why... Why this guy is trying so hard to keep me alive.

To be continued..!!