Him

Chapter 4

I stared at the stars blankly thinking about the bleak past. How could he just leave me hanging for years and now just magically showing up in the midst where everything is perfectly going smooth again. The worse part is, its making my defenses go up again, its making my stomach wrench and twirl with this unknown but ohsofamiliar feeling and its giving me an ass of a hard time. I know deep inside the deepest deep of my heart, Im terrified to admit it but I haven't forgotten anything about him. This is very confusing, I swear. If I ignore him as hard as i can maybe he'll just keep the distance or maybe I can. Urgh i don't know anymore. What am I gonna do?

My phone started to ring with 5SOS' Good Girls. The song was getting louder and louder every second that it was annoying me to death already. I picked up my phone and found out it was Charlie, oh what luck I have today. Seriously. *note the sarcasm*

"Hey Charlie." I said in an obviously annoyed tone.

"Someone's grumpy " he said amused.

"Who's grumpy?" I fake gaspingly

"Maybe the stars above who are bursting with phenomenal emotions or the moon talking to his grumpy lover, the sun or is it your bitterness thats making my grumpy sensor active and in work." He replied. It was enough for me to sense and imagine that one dimpled smile he always does.

"Why would I even be grumpy at such a relaxing and beautiful night, such as this." I rolled my eyes knowingly.

After talking like for a lifetime he finally hung up. I sighed remembering what he said. Am I really that bitter and grumpy that he could sense it in his so called grumpy sensor?

*Knock knock*

"Who is it ?" I asked in a muffled voice.

"Its Laura, I have ice cream." she said

"You cant come in if it isn't"I said

"Cookies and cream, i know." she continued.

"The gates are officially open for the young heiress Laura to come in." I announced as usual forgetting about my problems for a little while.

"So Charlie's back." She said slowly.

"Yup maybe. We talked on the phone just a little while ago."

"Are you okay?" She asked all guards up.

That threw me off. Am I confused? Yes, very. Am I okay with him being back? Obviously not. But overall, am I okay with whats happening now, with how I am? Its bearable, I'm surviving. Now that I think about it, if this was the me 2 years ago Im sure I would've had an emotional mess but know I never thought Id get so strong as this. I mean I'm just overthinking, I'm not crying nor am I even depressed. Im just thinking, and that my friends is a very big improvement,

"Earth to weird sister." She said amused by my thinking face.

"You know what, Im actually okay right now. Im thinking, overthinking to be exact but Im doing fine." I said genuinely smiling,

"Thats a relief then. Dinners ready by the way. Ill prepare the plates." She said equally smiling with a hint of relief.

After a few minutes, okay a lot of minutes or hours or maybe days or centuries, I'm finally done showering and pampering myself. It also gave me time to think more about the situation. My situation. After applying my favorite lavender lotion which I absolutely love to the bomb, I went downstairs for dinner. As cliché as this may sound he was at the end of my staircase. Note that its my staircase, my family's possession and absolutely not a place Charlie should be in.

"And you are here because?" I asked confusion evident in my tone.

"To visit my grumpy sun." He replied amusement tugging a smile on his lips.