Comfortable

Come Back

Kia

"Just breath Kia"!Leeya yelled as she swerved in and out of lanes going 120mph on the expressway. "I am fucking breathing,omg Leeya please get me to this fucking hospital or im going to have this baby right in this damn car!"Bitch oh hell no you are not about to mess up my seats!hold on we are almost there.I rocked back and forward and hummed for as long as I could until we pulled into the emergency entrance at the hospital.Leeya ran in to get me some help and i waited to be placed in a wheel chair.After I was placed into a room and put on machines it dawned on me that Trey wasn't here.Where the fuck is he?I waited until Leeya got off the phone before I asked her if she had heard from Trey.She said that he had just called and told her that he was on his way and to hold is baby in until he got here.I smiled at his words only to become sad and scared again.God I don't want to be without him but he can't seem to act right.As soon as my thought ended Trey,momma April,and Forrest came throough the door.Trey ran directly to me and placed a small kiss on my forehead.

Trey:How you feeling baby?

Me:Tired.Anxious.Scared.Nervous.Excited.Im feeling everything at once,much like I felt when I found out I was pregnant.

Trey:Yeah the difference is im here with you so you don't have to be scared babe,I wasn't there when you found out.

Me:We were in this same situation when I found out Trey.We weren't together and I.....Im Sorry.

Treys facial expression changed after I said those last words.He just dropped his head and wnt into deep thought.I can tell I had struck a nerve because he released the grip of our hands.I looked over at Forrest and he gave me a akward look and broke eye contact before walking out of the room.I guess everyone felt the elephant in the room because momma A and Leeya got up and left the room too.I was left with Trey and a cold silence that hunted me so I had to say something.

Me:Trey I didn't mean to bring that up,im sorry.

Trey:we still doing what we agreed to do once she is born?

Me:Yes I told you i'll still work for you,what does that have to do with anything.

Trey:nah,the other thing we talked about....

(I stared at Trey completely lost then it came back to me.)

Me:The DNA test?You really want a DNA test?

Trey:I mean in my heart I feel she's mine but I have to be sure.

Me:umm uh,okay then we will do it.

Trey:Ight cool.

I turned my head the other way so that Trey wouldn't see the tears forming in my eyes.Look at us we have fallen apart. He doesn't trust me and I don't trust him, pretty soon the love will be all gone and we will only have our daughter to remind us of what we use to be.I didn't want to think about it anymore and the contractions wasn't helping. I called for my doctor because the contractions were starting to get unbareable.It seems like I had been in labor for ever and I was getting more and more anxious.I gripped the sheets on the bed and threw my head back in pain as the doctor checked me to see how much I had dialated."You are currently 6 centimeters and you are moving rather quickly,you should be pushing in no time.Is the pain becoming to much?If so we can start you on a epidural." Before he could even finish the words I practically yelled "YES!''. After getting the epidural I was pretty good,still tired but good.I would catch Trey staring at me from time to time and he would just smile when we would lock eyes.I missed that alot and I know he can tell.A couple hours had past and I was ready to push.Trey stood on one side of me and my mom stood on the other side.My doctor nodded is head in my direction indicating when he wanted me to push.I took a deep breath and pushed.I swear this shit is for the birds because I just knew I was about to pass out.I relaxed before I started to push again and I can just feel my energy level dropping.I guess Trey noticed it so he begin to whisper in my ear as I continued to squeeze his hand.

Trey:Come on baby you got it,don't stop you got it.

Me:(Crying) Trey im so exhausted I can't do it.Why she just won't come out!?

Trey:Baby relax,yes you can do it.You strong just push through I'm right here I got you,squeeze as hard as you need to.

I gave one big push and all I can remember is the voices around me starting to become mumbled and my vision getting blurred.I heard the machine beating faster and my doctor alert some nurses then everything went black.

DOCTOR:(Her heart rate is dropping!)

Trey

I could not believe what I was witnessing.Everything around me disappeared and all I could think of was no I can't lose my babies right now.The nurses removed us from the room so that they could try and revive her and I just broke down.Nothing else mattered but Kia and Lyric,this music shit,the money,the hoes...man I would give all that shit up to be with her and my baby.I was called by the doctors after a few minutes to the emergency C-section room after I put on some scrubs.I set in the chair above Kia's head and I kissed her and told her I was here and I would never leave her. She slightly nodded her head as she slowly blinked her eyes.My baby looked so exhausted I just wish I could give her all of my energy or have this baby for her.Soon after I heard the doctor say "Well hello,little angel" and shortly after I heard my baby cry for the first time.God I can't explain how full my heart was with joy and excitement.The nurse handed lyric to me as the doctor begin to sew Kia back up and Tears streamed from my eyes as I seen my baby girl staring back at me.She was so alert and attentive it's almost like she knew that some had been going on. I told her that I loved her what seemed to be a billion times.She looked at me and I just knew she was mine.No DNA test needed this was definantly my other piece.As she continue to move around and look at me I talked to her.

Hey baby girl....im so happy that im finanlly holding you in my arms.I love you so much and mommy does too.Don't worry mommy is fine,she's a soldier thats where you get it from.Baby daddy never been more scared in his life then I was today.I thought I was losing you and mommy.You tricked me,you knew you were going to pull through you just wanted to teach your daddy a lesson huh?I get it baby.Daddy get it,I have to do right by your mommy so that we can all be togther again.I'm coming home to you both Lyric I promise.Trust me.

We talked a little more before the doctors took her to be cleaned up and everything.I went to inform the fam about what was going on and they eventually went to see Lyric in the nursery.Afew days had passed and it was now time for me to take Lyric and Kia home.I couldn't have been anymore proud.I held Kia's hand the whole ride home.Although there was a silence it wasn't akward at all.After we arrived and I helped Kia out of the car and into the house I got the baby and took her to her room to lay her down for a nap.After I went to talk to Kia.

Me:Baby how you feeling?

Kia:Im good.Thank you for being there for me.

Me:Baby thats my job.

Kia:yeah I know.

Me:So what now?I want to be here with you and lyric I can't leave baby.

Kia:Trey I can't have this conversation right now.

Me:What do you need me to do baby.

Kia:Trey just leave.

Me:fine.

I picked up what little pride I had left and I got my things and headed for the door.

Kia:Trey!

Me:Yes?

Kia:Come back.....