Habit || huening kai

Habit 2

Habit 2

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Habit #2: Looking for him

I turned off the t.v. and placed the bowl that I used at the sink. I head at my bedroom afterwards.

I took a quick shower. I changed my clothes and laid at my bed.

I glanced at my phone to see if I had a missed call from Kai. I closed my eyes again and inhaled deeply when I saw that there's no missed calls.

He loves you. He still loves you. He needs to love you.

I keep repeating it on my mind, trying to convince myself that he still loves me. Even if I don't know if he still do.

After a few minutes, I fell asleep...

"Mikyung!"

I looked from where the voice came from. I smiled, seeing my Kai running towards me, smiling too.

He hugged me tight and kissed my forehead.

"I missed you..."

He told me, still hugging me close to him. I hid my face in his chest.

"I missed you too..."

We stayed like that for a couple of minutes. He asked me if I want to go to his house since his mother wants me to, so I nodded since I want it, too.

We walked hand in hand, but everything turned black. I panicked when I can't feel his hand on mine.

I closed my eyes and the moment I opened it, I was in a field.

I looked everywhere, trying to find him. But there's no sign of him from where I am.

I called his name, but I got no answer.

There's no Kai in here, beside me.

I suddenly woke up from the dream that I had. I glanced at the digital clock at my bedside table.

4:30

I sat up, trying to remember my dream awhile ago.

It's not going to happen, right? Him, leaving me, alone?

He wouldn't do that. I can't let him do that. I don't want him to do that.

I stared at the framed picture beside my phone. It's our first anniversary.

We looked so happy back then.

I hugged my knees and cried quietly.

I feel weak. I feel lost. I feel nothing.

I want him, in here. I want him to hug me. I want him to tell me sweet nothings. I want him to tell me that I am safe. I want him to love me.

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