moon and stars

chapter 1 - the train

Remus was staring at the wall between platforms 9 and 10. He know that he would have to see his friends at some point so drawing it out was just a waste of time and energy. He sighed and ran at the wall.

The first thing that he saw when he got on to the platform was a split second of a tall boy running up to him. The next thing he know he was engrossed in a hug by the one and only Sirias Black. He relaxed instantly in to the others embrace, longing for it to go on for the rest of eternity. Soon they brock apart leaving a sad gap in Remus's hart that he pretended want there like he did all of his life since he meet Sirias.

"how was your Christmas moony?" a smiling padfoot asked. he can't tell him what my Christmas consisted of. Most of it was just him lying on his bed in pain and the rest of the time he read about werewolf's. "it was good, I just read mostly." he smile at him. he could not lie to him. It was not a lie it was just a half truth. That did not stop the wolf from rising up in his head and telling him that he is bad and a liar. He ended up zoning out trying to suppress the wolf but failing miserably. Luckily his friends started talking and Sirias was sucked in to the conversation.

They all got on the train him in the corner Sirias next to him and janes and peter sitting opposite to them. They all talked about what school and pranks. It was fun just like normal. This bugged Remus. He didn't understand. How could they be acting like everything was normal when it was not. When he was hurting. He know it was stupid. How could they tell he was hurting? He always put on a mask hiding how he felt. If he was going to be mad at someone, he should be mad at himself.

"hey, moony, you okay?" padfoot asked looking concerned. Remus hadn't noticed it, but he had been staring at the floor for longer than was natural. His head started spinning with thoughts that he had upset padfoot, but he put on a smile and a cheerful voice. "yeah thank pads just thinking."

This was not helping him feel like he wasn't lying. "are you shore you looked really tiered. Maybe you should get some sleep." Ramus simply nodded in response. Leaning his head on the cool glass as he drifted in to an uneasy rest.