(I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS AROUND 11-12... SO THAT'S THAT.)
We all have regrets in our lives. Seldom we can fix, but always sticks to the mistake
And that's what Scott has got in to. He regretted everything he did to Kirstin.
Scott Hoying was one of t...
⚠️ Anne's POV Were hanging out at Scott's house and Josh called me if you don't know who Josh is...well he's also my boyfriend why pick one if I can have them both? But no one knows except me.
I think Josh is getting suspicious that I'm always at a friends house we're celebrating 10M views on our new song when Scott and I kiss It's called LOVE some people hate and love it but I don't care about them. I need to go home early or else Josh is gonna be mad at me.
"Guys, I'm going to Starbucks who wants to come?" Scott asked. And the boys said no.
"I'm going home my mom needs me" I lied.
"Oh okay bye, love you"
I went home, I knocked and no one answered...weird.I know that Josh keeps key under the mat and I opened the house, well no one's home great...So great.
Josh's POV I don't know what's wrong with Anne but she's always in a 'friend's house' which is annoying me a little. Anne doesn't have time for me. I went to Starbucks by myself when I enter some tall blonde ran into me.
"I'm so sorry," the blonde man said. And of course, it's fine for me. I never have a thing for boys but... I don't know about this one. I need to stop I have a girlfriend! And the blonde invited me to sit with him. He's also alone just like me.
"What's your name?" I asked.
"I'm Scott" He answered. And I told him that I'm Josh we talked for ages and I asked if he has a girlfriend.
"I have a girlfriend named Anne," Scott said.
"My girlfriend's name is Anne too," I said. I don't need to worry maybe it's just a coincidence my girlfriend loves me. My phone is ringing so I excuse myself. It's Anne wondering why I'm not home and she wants me home. Well, she's a little bossy but I love her. "Scott, I need to go my girlfriend needs me. It's nice to meet you" I went home to find Anne with a red face and a hand on her hips. Oh boy, I'm in trouble.
"Where have you been?" She asked I laughed internally if that's even possible because that sounds just like my mom.
"To Starbucks and you have no rights to get angry at me. You're always with a 'friends' house and you don't have time for me!" I shouted.
"That's different Josh!" She said I don't want to deal with her so I went to sleep. But when I woke up she suddenly asked me if we can go to the mall.
Carl's POV I saw all of that and I can't believe it. I need to stay quiet Kirstin is moving on from Scott. But how can I tell Scott and Josh that Anne is cheating on them? Kirstin is my priority so I don't want to be stressed on Scott's situation.
"Are you okay?" I asked Kirstin
"Please stop asking, I'm tired of lying," she said with a low voice. Oh no she's going to cry!
"It's fine let it out"
" I'm the horrible daughter. I'm not even the second choice. I'm the 'leftover'. I'm not the clever one. I'm not the skinny one. I'm the talentless one. I'm the 'why are you even here?' I'm just not good enough." She said while her tears are running down her face. I can't help but cry, I hugged her.
"It's going to be fine, Hope means hold on pain ends," I said seeing Kirstin like this is breaking me.
"When I was a little I wanted to grow up. This sh*t is not what I expected." Her lips are quivering and her voice is wavering.
"Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Don't hope too much. Because that 'too much' can hurt you, so much." I whispered to her.
"What is there to like about myself?" hearing Kirstin saying that absolutely breaks my heart but I let her speak. She needs to let it out. "I couldn't tell you what happiness feels like anymore." "The worst crying is when you're lying in bed, with your hand over your mouth so you don't make any noise. The tears are running down onto your pillow and your hearts breaking and your other hand is on your heart or stomach because they both hurt."
"It's okay Kirstin"
"Life sucks there's no 'happily ever after' there's no such thing as true love. This isn't some Disney movie this is reality, and the reality is Disney lied to us leaving us with hope only to have that hope shattered and broken and taken away from me because in reality happiness is just a fantasy." She said I know that she grew up watching Disney movies.
"Stop being sad Kirstin" And I realize that I made a mistake by saying that.
"Don't tell me to just stop being sad, you have no f*cking idea what it feels like to be crushed and broken. Shattered like glass dropped on concrete. You try to put yourself back together, but no matter how hard you try, you just can't. They just tell you to be happier and laugh it off. It's not that simple, so I suggest you stop talking to me as if I'm just some idiot who is purposely feeling this way. You don't think I haven't tried being happy?"
"I'm sorry, I'm just trying to help please stop hurting yourself" I know that she's hurting herself and that needs to stop. I went to hug her again and I didn't let go.
"It wasn't a suicide attempt. It was an escape from everything awful and I'm sorry too Carl"
I saw her painting "No need to say sorry I understand, what's that Kirstin?"
"Oh, It's my painting"
"I'm fine?" I asked.
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(👆Thanks to IlovePentatoniixx for wasting his time for the I'm fine thingy)
