Chapter 17: Telling

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Kirstin's POV
I didn't know that it's Josh, I'm not mad at Josh he doesn't do anything wrong. He's a victim just like Scott the only difference is Scott is a jerk.

I don't know what to do I care about Scott, but he doesn't care about me. I want to tell him that Anne is cheating on him but I'm sure that he's not believing in it. Heck, he doesn't even wanna see my face I'm ugly and untalented. I saw Carl he probably saw my worried face.

"Carl, help me there are days when I'm fine, but there are days when I'm sad and I don't know why. I thought that I moved on from Scott."

"Just follow your heart Kirstin," Carl said. What does that suppose to mean?

"Follow my heart? my heart is in a million pieces, which piece do I follow? I want to be gone!"
I'm on the verge of breaking down. These kinds of talks always make me cry, I'm a very sensitive person.

"You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found." He said then he smiled... not a happy one but a sad smile.

"If you could read my mind you'd be in tears," I said truthfully.

"I know sweetheart, there's hope don't give up." Carl said scared of saying don't be sad because of our past conversation about it.

I'm so thankful for Carl he's the only one that's always by my side. But he's not staying that long. He would be gone tomorrow
Because I don't have friends and my parents don't care about me, I could be dead right now and they won't even know.

I think it's time for me to go home my babies are waiting for me.

Scott's POV
Being on tour is so tiring I just finished my show in Dallas! I saw Mitch, Kevin, Avi, and Matt going in my direction with serious faces. Do I sound bad at the concert?

"Scott we have to talk to you about your girlfriend, or should I say ex-girlfriend." I saw Mitch smirking. What happened to Anne? Oh shoot I forgot about her I need to call her, I haven't seen her in a long time.

"I'm going straight to point... she cheated on you," Mitch added.

What? Anne loves me she would never, I mean NEVER do such thing!

"I thought we're friends Mitchell, but you're a one big liar. So don't talk to me." I snapped, do I mean it? Or am I just tired?

I called Anne she answer it immediately and she's crying?

"What's wrong babe," I asked her.

"T-there's nothing wrong and by the way, I'm not c-cheating on you."

Well, that's weird...

"Anne? Anne!" I shouted but no one is answering. I'll call again later maybe the guys accuse her for cheating and that made her mad. I love Anne with my whole heart.

I'll probably spend the whole day tomorrow with Anne, I'm planning on spending it with my friends but nuh uh I'm not going anywhere near them.

I'm so tired so I sleep I can't wait to spend the whole day with my girlfriend tomorrow.

When I woke up the first thing I did was call my girlfriend. But she doesn't want to hang out... maybe I'll spend my whole day alone.

Shopping in the mall wouldn't hurt, right? I hope there's not a lot of people there.

I saw Anne, I promised that it's Anne with Josh? what are they doing? I walked to them.

"Hello Josh and Anne," I said and I saw Anne with wide eyes and a hand over her heart.

"Not expecting me huh?" I smirked.

Anne pulls Josh's hand and ran away. Is she cheating on me? They can be close friends, right? think positive Scott...

Kirstin's POV
I'm woken up by my phone ringing. Well good morning, I answer it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hello Kirstin, this is Bella your old neighbor."

"What's up?" I asked again.

"Uhh... your father is dead, he died from a car accident we tried to take him in the hospital but he's dead on arrival." I heard the sadness in Bella's voice.

How can this day be better? with saying goodbye to Carl and with my father dying? I can't handle it anymore. I walked inside the bathroom get my razors and start to cut my wrist.

I saw Carl inside the bathroom and he shouted Stop it to me. I just looked down at my bloody wrist then at Carl I smiled at him, a wicked smile and asked "Was that supposed to hurt?" raising my eyebrow and grinning maliciously.

"Come on Kirstin let's clean you up."

Why is he so chill about this situation? I can't take it.

"I'm sorry Kirstin," Carl said.

"It's not your fault Carl, even though my parents don't care about me I still love them they're still my parents but I can't fly to New York to be in his funeral. I don't have enough money."

Carl's POV
I heard crying in the bathroom and who else could that be... of course Kirstin she's cutting herself because she can't take it anymore. Her father died in a car crash. Kirstin's father is in New York I went there yesterday.

I clean Kirstin up, pick her and bring her to the kitchen to eat breakfast. It's hard saying goodbye to this woman. But I'll be gone in lunch time.

I said sorry to Kirstin and she said that it's wasn't my fault but it was.

His brakes hadn't been cut on their own.

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I'm sorry for the BILLION POV changes in this chapter.

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