Soulmates // Matthew Daddario ♡ (2)

part 25 ~ let's clear this up

    I have no idea for how long I had been in the woods crying over Matt's harsh words, but it was now sunset time. My phone kept buzzing, but this time it was Harry calling.

    《Harry guy》I tried to sound as okay as possible.

    《Little thing, are you okay?》his voice was soft and quiet.

    《Pff did Alex call you?》

    《She did》he sighed,《And I know what Matt was referring to but there was no need to throw it on you like that》

    《I shouldn't have told him those things. God, it was so stupid to even think about that!》

    《You should never apologize for how you feel about someone, sweet thing. We're humans, we're allowed to feel things. That's how it goes》

    《He could've just told me, you know? Like hey, apparently I'm still hurting for my ex girlfriends, let's slow down a little bit. Instead of going all the way with let's move in and then fly to New York together》

    《He's not hurting for his ex girlfriends, he's just being insecure》

    《Yeah like I'm the most confident person in the whole world. I literally moved for him twice, I'm always here for him, that's not enough for him to believe I actually love him? You tell me, am I being unclear?》

    《You made yourself clear, Olive, it shows. Your love literally shows, and his does too. He's somehow scared of I don't even know what but you should know. He should talk to you about that stuff, it's important》

    《Great, here he comes》I sighed as I quickly wiped away my tears.

    《You guys need to talk, I'll call you later》

    《Okay, thank you. I love you so much》I hung up and locked my phone.

    Matt had a guilty look on his beautiful face as he slid on the grass and sat in front of me. I tried with all my strenght not to look at him in the eyes, so I wouldn't sob right in front of him.

    《Babe can we talk?》his voice cracked up as he spoke quietly. My heart jumped at the nickname, he had never called me that ever before.

    My whole chest was hurting, so many feelings flying around wildly inside of me. I bit my bottom lip with more pressure than usual, afraid I would've started crying uncontrollably.

    《I'm so sorry, Olive. I'm mortified. I've been such an ass you don't deserve that. You- You don't deserve me》

    《Are you.. breaking up with me?》my voice cracked and tears started rolling down my cheeks.

    《No I don't want to do that. But if that's what's best for you I would rather rip my heart out than seeing you unhappy》he sounded and looked so miserable my heart broke into millions of pieces.

    《You are what's best for me》I cried. --《You're all I ever want and need. How can you not see that? I fucking love you so damn much my chest hurts, Matthew. How can you be so blind?》

    《I do see that, baby girl. You look at me like I'm the only guy on earth, and the way you smile for me is so much more than the way you smile for anyone else》his voice lowered how as he was about to brust into tears, which broke my heart even more.

    I grabbed the collar of his white t-shirt and pulled him impossibly closer, rushing my lips on his quite instantly. His lips tasted like tears and fear; fear to lose each other, fear to lose that special kind of love. I deepened the kiss and gave in, pulling his hair a bit, as he wrapped his long warm arms around me and pulled me even closer.

    《I don't want to lose you》Matt's raspy voice spoke against my lips as we refilled our lungs. --《Ever》

    《God, I love you so damn much》I breathed out, tears still rolling down my cheeks.

    《There's something I.. I need to tell you》