between the moon and sun

Ya Allah

Chelsey POV

Amina opened the door where Tariq and Usama were sitting. I heard them laughing. I was blushing under my niqab, i was moving hardly, i didnt even see Usama and i already was out of myself.

We entered the room, they were sitting, and so i and Amina sat down.

I was lowering my gaze, and so was Usama. Tariq and Amina were speaking, i dont even know about what cuz i was thinking about nothing. My head was full of nothing, then Tariq asked me:

'Are you fine Chelsey, is everything ok, how was your life the last few months'.

Tariq stoped my thinking, and i was thankfull for that.

I looked up and that was the first time that i saw Usama. Our eyes met for the first time. He had a beard, brown messy hair, he had muscles, i gues he was going to the gym every day ..

Chelsey stop itt, i said to myself. I was now even more blushing, i looked down, it was hard to even answer Tariq but i had to.

'Fine Alhamuduliah' this was all that i said. I just could not say anything else, i was too shy. And i realized that Usama was shy to, he was lowering his gaze all the time, he had a shy smile on his face. I felt hot under my niqab.

Soon after it was time to pray.  I and Amina decided to go to pray in the other room.

We took our wudus and after we finished our prayer we just sat down on the floor and started talking.

'This is just too much for me, maybe this all marriage thing is too much for me, im not ready' i said looking at the floor. 'I just cant speak to him right now'

' ok, i can understand you, maybe we will find another solution' Amina answered.

I didnt know what kind of solution does she mean, but ok.

'Can you go to them and say that i cant talk now, im feeling sick'.

'Ok i will' Amina said and she left the room.

I have to find a solution to get to know him on the halal way. I cant talk to him, i have to find a solution.

I have to get married, Allah said so, and i need someone.

And i think that i maybe fall in love with Usama, who knows.

Oo Allah falling in love is soo hard and stupid.

O hope that Amina will help me to find a solution to meet Usama but on the halal way. I was in my room, thinking about my wedding dress and waiting for Amina to come, maybe she has an idea.