between the moon and sun

the new day

Amina POV

It was morning. The sun was up, it was such a nice day Alhamdullilah.

I woke up before Chelsey she was sleeping.

I didnt want to wake her up, so i decided to make breakfast.

Today i felt so lazy, that morning the sun left soon, and it started to rain. It was such a nice rain, the autumn rain.

It wasnt cold, i was in my pygamas. I had to idea what to do today, i felt so lazy.

Chelsey woke up to. She had something on her mind, but i will ask her after what is happening.

We decided that day to spend together, we will watch movies, eat junk food, talk, just relax. The weather was perfect for that. I made tea for us, we took candles, i choosed a movie. We sat down, we were watching the movie, outside was raining.

The feeling was awesome. We had to pray so i stoped the movie. I took my wudu and we prayed. Chelsey was thinking, she didnt talk too much like she does always.

'What is going on Chelsey, you are not the same chelsey that i know.' i asked her, i was worried about her answer.

'Im confused, i dont know what should i do' she answered not looking in my eyes. I didnt understand her answer.

'How do you mean that?

'Its about my life, about my deen and Usama. Amina im living by my own, i dont have a mother that i had before. I dont have any sisters, brothers im alone. Yes i need a husband, but i dont know its Usama the one that i need. What if we get married, what if something goes bad, i dont have my money, i dont have a family to help me. Im confused, i dont no my decision. ' she said with her eyes filled with pain.

'I know that you are thinking much about Usama. If you feel that you love him, marry him. Belive in Allah, belive in your heart. Pray to Allah to help you, if you think that Usamas deen is good, you only need someone who will help you with your faith. I think that he is a good brother. Dont wait with marriage, you know what Muhamad pbuh said about it, we have to follow him. If you belive in Allah dont worry, your future is in His hands'. I said trying to help her as much as possible. I feel that my speech came to her, to her heart. But she still didnz show any reactions. So i decided to her time and space. She needs to deal first with herself. I stood up and said:

'Listen Chelsey, take your time, i will go now i have to help Tariq with something, pray to Allah now, make dua to help you and belive me you will have your answer.'

She just noded. I left her in the empty room, she was alone by herself and Allah swt.

Maybe she will make her decision, maybe her life will change, maybe she will marry Usama i just pray when i come back that she will be a different person.