Forgotten (sequel to Forbidden a Nathan Sykes Fanfiction)

Chapt. 29

"Tell me why." I demand. I'm not going to let him go this easily. I can't. He sighs and closes his door.

"Not here. Let's go somewhere else." He scratches the back of his head. I don't ask where. I'll go anywhere with him. He walks beside me but with a few feet between us in distance. He leads me to a park. He leans against it and then crouches down and sits on the moist grass since it just rained. I do the same but sit in front of him.

He stays silent for minutes and so do I.

"Tell me why you're leaving." I repeat. Bird chirps in the distance and cars buzzing by.

"I miss my family," He begins to say. "I realised how much I miss my little brother, when I was playing video games with your brother. I wondered how it would be playing Call of Duty with him, or if he was even into Call of Duty. I miss my sister and her inability to put on makeup - but maybe she mastered that skill already. I miss my momma and her mashed potatoes. I miss Texas, Josie. This-," he motions to everything surrounding.

"- isn't my scenery. This isn't me. This isn't home Josie. You wanna know what home is?" He asks. Tears already start to form in my eyes.

"Home is where heart is. Home is where you feel your best at. Where you feel at peace and happy. Home isn't always just a place. It can be someone. And for the longest time I believed you were my home. But you're not. I was lost. I never knew what or where I belonged when I first got here. When I met you I finally thought I knew what home is. But I don't. I found reassurance in someone who already has a home. Josie, you never loved me." I start to want to intrude but he doesn't let me.

"No- hear me out. You love me, I know you do. But you don't really. I'm confusing I know. What I'm trying to say is that you found comfort in me just like I found comfort in you. We are both alike. We share one thing in common. And that is we were both lost when we came here. And we both lacked home. Comfort. Love. Happiness. We found it within each other but, now I realise we had home all along. It just has taken us long to realise it. Josie, I am not for you. You are not for me. It kills me, it really does. I'm in love with you and we are not for each other. Sweetheart, you have your place to be. And that isn't here. I know that. It's up to you to find your home. Mine is back in Texas, with my family. My home is my big sister, and my little brother, and my momma. That's my home. Find yours darling. Find it."

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"It was really an honour having you two ladies working here with me. I'm really sorry it had to come to an end." Our manager sighs. "This is your last pay check. It was really nice meeting you two." She hands us an envelope with our pay check inside. She nods and walks away. I stare at the white envelope in my hand. I run my fingers across it. This is it. My last day working here. I look up to Tania. She has a heartbroken look on her face. I extend my arms and she looks up with tears in her eyes. She stares at me and I feel stupid. She hugs me though, at last. Crying, I believe. It brings tears to my own eyes.

"I'm sorry Josie, for all the things I've done to you. And how I treated you." She cries. I wave it off.

"Its alright. Let bygones be bygones." I smile sadly.

"Nice meeting you, really." She says. I believe her. She's so nice, how odd.

"You too Tania. Good luck." She wishes the same to me and leaves.

I start making my way out as well. Walking home, I take small steps, basically dragging my feet against the pavement. My shoes scrape against the cement. I take this time to think a bit. About Liam. He broke up with me. Said it was for the best. I'm numb to be completely honest with you. I think about my jobless status. How my rent is due and I don't have food to eat. I think about what Liam said, me going back to England. I thought I could make it, you know? Start a new life here in New York with little to no problems. I was wrong. God, I was so wrong. Making the move has been harder. I don't know what to do.