Imperfect Perfect Love

Chapter 2

Kunal's POV

It's been exactly one month after that dreadful day. I still can remember it clear as a day. It keeps on playing in my mind like a broken record. If I wouldn't have been stupid this wouldn't have ever happened, but all I wanted was God good for her and this where she ended in a hospital bed. I want to ignore it and carry on with my life, if something is even left of it. I wanted to go and meet Saksha and make sure she was okay but I couldn't now after she's been out of the coma. Yes for the last one month she was in comma and just few days she's out if it and I was strictly told to be away from her if not it'll give her a shock and she might again go into one.. As much as I want to see her badly, hold her badly I don't want to see her in that icu again. Last month it nearly killed me to see her laying lifeless on that bed and the only proof she was alive was the beeping sound of the machine next to her which was counting her heartbeats. And I was the one who was to be blamed for this, if I had thought rationally and not act out of anger things would have been different she wouldn't be in that God damn bed right now but instead she'd be with me holding me and telling me that she loved me. I'm such a big asshole that I ruined the one who loved me, I did unspeakable things to her, time and again hurt her and all she did in return was love me. I was such a fuck up to say her that she wasn't worthy of my love when in reality it was me. All of this was my fault. I need something to ease my guilt. I badly want a drink but I can't because it was thing that got her in the first place I couldn't do this to her again, but I couldn't sit her and let these thoughts take over me I need an escape and I know where I'll find mine. So with these thoughts I got up from my bed. Tied up my shoe lace and with the car keys in my hand I left from my room. When leaving my house I yelled for my mom "mom I'm gonna be out for a while, I'll be back by dinner time." I didn't even wait for her to reply and was about to reach for the door when my mom appeared from the kitchen, she might have been started with dinner preparation. " where are you going and that do dressed up like this?" she questioned me eyeing me from head to toe

" mom it doesn't matter I want to be alone, just do one thing don't call me I'll be back soon please." sighing I left my house. I know I looked like a crazy homeless person but I could give a less shit about it, I just wanted my peace that's it.