Worldly.Sinner.Lazy.Selfish.Insecure.Jealous.Lier.Cheater.Unbeliever.
Those are the words that can be associated with my name BEFORE I met Christ. I am such a stubborn girl back then, but I’m not that bad. I don’t take drugs, I don’t skip classes and I know how to respect people especially the Christians. But I can’t avoid thinking that they are WEIRD. And I never imagined, me, being one of them.
I thought life is just about studying, reaching your dreams, exploring the world, growing old with the one you truly love and such. Until our Christian friend asked us questions that change my perspective, “What is God’s purpose in your life?” “Do you really know God?” “Are you living your life according to His will?” “Are you save?”
The thought struck me, “Am I really living my life for the One who died for it?” Since then, I remember the things I did----all the cheating, lying, cursing, and selfishness---a total disappointment. I want to change but I don’t know how. I tried but I failed till one night I cry my heart out to the Lord. I am tired of trying to be good. It feels like it wasn’t me anymore. But God hear me and said that I can’t change on my own, that we need God to change us into a new being---a reflection of Him to our friends and family.
After that I started attending Bible Studies, fellowships and activities that help me grow stronger with God. Knowing God is the greatest privilege I ever had. It feels like waking up after a very deep sleep. The more I study His words, the more I fall in love with Him. The more I follow Him, the more blessings I receive. The more I become closer to Him, the more I realize that nothing is more important than Him.
And I decided to take it seriously, March 23, 2014, the day of my baptism. I am finally an official BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN. My family are Catholic and I expected that they will persecute me. They did at first but they still accept me. Maybe because they trust me and they noticed that I am changing for the better, that I am growing with God.
I know that I am a “baby” Christian. I have a very rough and long journey to take but I never bother, as long as God is with me and my prize is eternal life with Him. What more can I ask for? It is with Him that I feel complete, that I am loved and everything is at peace.
For more than 5 months of being a Christian, I can tell how wonderful, amazing and great our God is. I am a shy type of person, I hate talking in front of people but God use me to share His words. It is awesome how He can change a person. Honestly, I never imagine myself writing these stuffs, but here I am, sharing with you my testimony. And believe it or not, you are reading this because it is planned.
He planned for me to tell you that it is never too late or impossible to change. He is willing to renew us, just open your heart to Him and surrender all our burdens, let them go. He knows us more than we know ourselves. We may not understand what’s happening in our lives, one thing is for sure. All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28)
Friends, let me tell you that being a Christian is the most perfect decision I’ve made in my entire life. I will never regret living for God. It is with Him that we can feel the true essence of love, joy and contentment. The world may offer you his best but can you really tell yourself that you are contented with what you have when you know that it won’t even last for a lifetime? It’s your choice. J
Don’t just exist, LIVE. <3
Waaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry (1000000000000000000x) for the super duper late update. Hope maintindihannyo!! Jthank you much much for reading!! God bless always po!!! And never forget that GOD LOVES YOU! ME TOO!! ^_^
