What am I to you? - Erasermic fanfiction

What Am I To You?

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"what do you want?!" - said shota as he turned abruptly
"what do you mean what do I want? How come you just storm out of the bar in this weather?", hizashi asked.
"what was that?" shota asked with more pissed off expression than usual.
"wha-what was what...?", hizashi knew what he was talking about but he wanted to hear it himself.
"the kiss."
There it was.
"oh... Did that... Really bothered you?", he asked hesitantly.
"of course it did! What do you think?!", shota yelled.
"I don't know! You don't make things clear! And I was too scared to ask! To ask... How you felt about me... What am I to you? Whats on your heart when you hold me like that at night? is it just lust or is it... Nevermind. I'm sorry.", Hizashi turned to walk away before he lost all control of the tears but shota held his hand.
" love? ", he asked," that's what you were going to say?"
" yes. ", he confessed." but it's dumb. I should've just-", before he could finish his sentence, shota turned his by the arm he was holding on to, grabbed his face and fiercely kissed him.
"Humphth sho, what the hell?!", Hizashi asked, still startled and breaking away the kiss.
"I'm sorry."
"huh?"
"I may have caused this. I was never good with words. And what the hell was I thinking, that I could do my business and not have this kind of talk with you? I should've known by now that this sort of stuff can get complicated....I should've told you from the stars that I love you. I made you suffer didn't I? ", shota asked, finally looking hizashi in the eyes.
" Shota you... Ah, I-no its just... It's not your fault ... I should have talked sooner as well. I was just afraid of loosing whatever we had. Since I had you in some way. But you... Really feel that way?"
"Are you kidding me? You're the one who pulled me trough high school, the one who shared a bit of your energy with my lifeless self, the one who shined a little light in my dark life. Hell, we couldn't be more different but yet I always felt so attracted to you, enough that I could overlook the noise. I was just....conflicted with my feelings. I acted but I didn't really wanted to admit to myself what I was and what I felt, I just bottled stuff up and pretended it never happened, or even gave some dumb excuse to myself. but I never thought how it made you feel. Damn, I really am a piece of shi-",
This time was Hizashi who interrupted him with a kiss." don't talk that way about yourself, we're all dealing with our demons. And I've always loved you the way you are. "

Still wet from the rain, the rest of the "conversation" was made beneath the sheets. This time less carnal. Not that it was something bad, it's just that this time was replaced by more tenderness. More kisses. And cuddles.