He Gave Me Hope

There Are No Feelings

Dean had been tracing his fingers along Cas' chest as soon as he woke in the morning, which had in turn woke Cas up as well. Now they lay with their legs tangled together and Dean resting his head against Cas' chest, listening to sound of his heartbeat. "Did you sleep okay?" Dean chuckled softly as he stretched his arm across Cas' chest, turning his head slightly as he placed gentle kisses along his chest. Sitting up slowly, Dean looked into Cas' eyes, then reached up to caress his cheek.

"I actually slept better than I have in a while." Cas shifted slightly, placing his hand gently against Dean's hip, "how about you, Cas?"

Cas smiled, letting his head fall to the left slightly so that he could glance at the clock on the bedside table, "well, it's 8:30 in the morning, which means that I slept for about 6 hours, which is more than I've had in a while now." Turning his attention back to Dean, Cas reached his hand up slowly, gently running his thumb over Dean's lip, "thank you so much for staying the night Dean, it's feels like it's been forever since I have had someone here in bed with me." Dean pushed himself up, so he was sitting and he placed his hand on Cas' chest.

"Any time Cas," how is he doing this? I am not this passionate with anyone. Dean carefully moved off of the bed standing up to stretch then turned back to look at Cas. "Where is the bathroom?" Cas lifted his arm toward the door by the closet with a small smile on his lips, and Dean couldn't help but smile back at him, "yeah thanks for the help." Dean grabbed the pillow next to Cas, gently threw it into Cas' face, and he turned to walk out of the room.

He had found the bathroom easy enough as it was just outside the door, which he soon noticed the door led into the bedroom once he finished his business. Cas hadn't moved from where was laying, instead he watched Dean as he came back into the room a slight smirk on his lips. Dean caught his expression, raising his eyebrow curiously, "what's that look for?" Cas sat up slightly, propping himself up on his elbow, he looked disheveled. His hair was messy and the light stubble on his chin had made Dean chuckle softly as he stepped forward to sit on the bed.

"I just enjoy the sight of you Dean," wow well that definitely is something I've never heard, but coming from him...awesome.

"Cas I wanna take you out."

"Like on a date?" Cas raised his eyebrow, then Dean had to chuckle, he was not one to go out on dates, let alone ask to take a client out somewhere.

"Well....no I don't do dates." Cas sat up, moving so that his back was rested against the headboard of his bed then looked down at his hands taking a deep breath and Dean shifted as he moved, "look I don't know what you are expecting from me Cas, but I can't be that for you. It's just for fun that's it." Dean shrugged his shoulders, licking his now dry lips

"I understand that Dean, I do and I don't expect anything, I just," Cas hesitated briefly looking away for a few seconds then turning his gaze back to Dean, "all I know is that I enjoy having you here with me, even if I am just another client of yours." Wow way to make me seem like a major ass Cas. Dean took a deep breath, shaking his head as he stood up from the bed. "I'm gonna go..."

Cas clenched his fist under the blanket then he looked up at Dean, gently biting his lower lip, "yeah okay."

Dean hesitated as he looked at Cas, he should say something, anything that could make this situation less awkward but what could he say? 'I'm sorry I'm a sex addicted whore, nothing personal?' No he couldn't say that so he just turned, grabbing up his clothing from the floor, he'd done this so many times before, the leaving thing, so he slipped them on with ease, then he turned back to face Cas again taking a deep breath before he spoke, "I'll send you the address to the place to meet me at, be there at 5 pm." Cas didn't say anything, he just leaned his head back against the headboard with a small smile on his face, so Dean smiled halfheartedly and walked out of the room. He slipped his shoes on at the front door just as he had that first night, and just as he had before, he walked out the front door closing it behind him.