Sea of lies (blue exorcist fanfic)

Deciding Revenge

Rin's pov
They still stood there.
Well all except Yukio.
He lied there with blood drying on his face.

It should have been me who got shot not Amaimon. If only I hadn't brought him with me. Then none of this would of happened.

It's all my fault.

Samuels pov
I noticed Rin had tears forming in his eyes and his fists were clenched.

(He's gonna blame Rin for all this like Yukio blamed him for Shiros death just to add a bit of drama... well a bit more drama)

"Its my fault" he whispered. "I shouldn't of brought him here."

Something just clicked. Making me snap at Rin.

"Your right. It's all your  fault. You should have got shot not him. You should be the one dead.
Now I'm finally starting to understand why they hate you!" I said while pointing at the exorcist. "You killed Shiro. You were the reason for their families deaths.
You should be the one dead!"

His eyes widened and he stumbled backwards. My eyes narrowed as I glared at him.

"I-I know I s-should be dead. But I'm not. I wish I could be. But I'm not. Everyone wants me dead. But I'm not.
Hell I've even wished I could of stopped Yukio and got shot instead. I know I shouldn't of brought Amaimon but know, you made us go.

However, if you want you can kill me now. I'll feel a lot better. Then you won't have to deal with seeing me" he replied shocking us all.

Bon's pov
Is that really how he feels?
Well he should he's a demon!
Yeah I know but even he shouldn't think like that
And why not?
Because he's wishing to be killed and that's some thing that no one should go through.
Your making very weak points.
I know. I mean he deserves death
Yes
He deserves all the torture and hateful glares.
Yes
But he shouldn't be getting them
Y- wait what?
He's not responsible for Amaimon's death. Yukio is. He's not responsible for our families death. Satan is. He's not responsible for Shiro's death. Once again Satan is.
He I-
SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY!
Fine

"Hey leave him alone it's not his fault! It's Yukio's. And Satan was responsible for Shiro's and our families death. And what right do you have to say that about him. Your the only one he trusts in the room who's not dead.
Yet I think with what you just said that trust is gone."

I received a hateful glare from Mephisto. As he started to walk over to me.
Grabbing me throat he started choking me.
"Don't you touch him." A loud demanding voice filled the room.
Making Mephisto let go.
" and who are you to tell me? After all I'm your big brother Mephisto said smugly.

"Are you?"
"Am I what"
"My big brother?"
"Yes... why?"
"Its just that I thought big brothers were supposed to be responsible for their siblings and be kind to them. Certainly not threaten to kill them or blame them for every thing  that goes WRONG!" Rin finished with blue flames surrounding him and tears flowing down his face.

Mephisto's pov
He stood there surrounded in flames tears streaming from his eyes.
I didn't mean to blame him like that.
I didn't mean to hurt him.
I-I didn't mean to hurt him.
Yet that's what he believes I think of him.
I'm sorry little brother.
I really am.

Yet there A a voice at the back if my head saying:

Oh, but you did mean it.
He deserves to die!