You, Me And Him (Harry Styles)

Hearts never breaks even.. (PART 23)

(-Jessica-)

We had been lying here for hours, and hours but now it was time to get up.

I had an important call with Louis, and I could barely bear it right now.

This moment was getting ruined by Lou. I had to tell him today. I was breaking his heart today. This was the worst day ever. It started out so perfect, and now it's a nightmare.

I needed him to know, but I wanted Harry to tell him. He was a guy, he could seem more scary...

He would say somehing like,

'Jess and me are dating, and we were before you came along. She's my girl, leave her alone or heads will be rolling' ...or something like that.

Harry and Louis are best friends, so Tommo would probably understand it better...

But I couldn't bail out of this. I had to succeed or everything me and Harry had were gone.

It was a bad feeling, but I pulled out of Harry's arms, took my clothes on.

I grapped my phone, and looked at Harry like my eyes were saying "privacy"

He understood, and walked out of the room saying

"I'll take a shower now, baby"

And I nodded at him, gesturing where the bathroom was.

He waved, smiled and mouthed

'it'll be okay'

I looked through my contacts trying to find Louis.

As I scrolled down, I saw so many numbers of people I barely know or people I haven't talked to.

I decided to take my time deleting some of the numbers. There were a lot of numbers deleted.

I finally got down to 'Louis' In my contacts.

My heart skipped a beat, and I hesitated before calling his number.

What shall I tell him?

'hey Louis, it's me. I never loved you, I have actually been with Harry without you knew it. Hope it's okay that I'm being a slut...' it was the truth, but it sounded too rough. I need it to sound better. It hurts inside of me to know that it was true. I was being a slut... Well. Technicaly, I was a virgin so I couldn't be a slut... Except the fact I kept Louis believing I loved him, while I was loving Harry, and now Harry knows about Louis, but Lou doesn't know about Harry.

Is it as bad as it sounds? Cause it did feel bad too. Well, hell...

I pressed the button, and it ringed twice

"heyy, baby!" he said, sounding exited "what's up? Slept well?" he asked.

"hi. Yes, I slept great. Nothing's up... Well, actually something is up." I said sounding all weird.

"oh... What's wrong?" he said. I bet he heard how my voice were cracking before.

Taking a deep breath, in and out. Doing that 3 times, before I spoke.

My hands were sweating and I felt bad.

"Louis... I--- I'm not In love with you. I thought you knew that..." I finally said. Felt like a burden left my shoulder. He was quiet for a long while, as he said

"what do you mean...?" he asked sounding all confused, and the burden was back.

"when you kissed me, I didnt want it. I tried to pull away, but you forced me... I couldn't move away"

I told him. Now feeling nausea getting to me. Telling him straight ahead how I felt was awful.

"I thought you wanted it." he said. Oh hell! Why is this happening?

"I didn't... If I had been able to pull away, I would have done it. How come you didn't feel me pulling away?"

I finished but he didn't answer me

"um, I have something I need to do" he finished. What did he mean?

"Louis?!" but it was too late... He already hung up on me.

I wanted to cry. I didn't want to do anything else than cry... And cry.