You, Me And Him (Harry Styles)

Silent Secret (PART 15)

I were shocked that he came by just like that...

"Lou... What are you doing here?"

"I missed you... You mad?" he replied, looking like a little kid.

"well, you came unannounced" I told him.

"no I didn't. I texted you." he said. Not giving up, or wanting to leave.

"well... Why did you come?"

"I couldn't sleep. So it meant you were thinking about me."

He smiling said.

Okay... He certainly didn't feel that the kiss was wrong.

Oh heck. What shall I do? I like Tommo a lot, but not the way I love Harry.

He took my hand, pulled me down on the bed beside him. He laid down and pulled me with him so we were now spooning. It actually felt good to spoon with someone.

If it had been Liam he would panic, haha. You know... His fear of spoons.

"I'm glad to be here with you." he said, kissing my neck.

I had to tell him how I felt. How I wanted this to be.

I couldn't help it. There were tears rolling down my cheeks, which he noticed.

He didn't say anything, he just brushed off my tears and tried to comfort me.

It didn't feel like it helped. No, the tears came down even faster now than before.

He rolled on top of me, and looked me in the eyes.

"what's wrong?" he looked nervous and worried.

I didn't answer him, I just needed to hug someone right now.

As I cried for something that seemed like forever, he just stayed here

by my side, doing everything to make it okay. He was sweet. Really sweet.

I cried even more now. He believed I was in love with him, and I didn't tell him.

I was a bad person. I didn't deserve his comfort.

If I told him I never wanted this to happen, how would he react?

I just cried into his shoulder. It was what I needed most.

"did I do anything to make it start?" he asked, now with tears in his eyes.

I couldn't reply. I just cried like a retard.

"was it what happened earlier?" he asked. Now speaking louder.

I decided to answer him so he didn't wake my mom up.

"kinda..." was all I could say.

"I'm sorry." he whispered.

He didn't understand what I meant. I just couldn't tell him.

I knew I had to. It would break him... And probably ruin everything

I slowly dazed into something that must have been sleep.

I dreamt about dancing with penguins and pigeons. KEVIN!

The plastic bird started talking. It mumbled about the events today with Boo Bear.

"little does she know, she's a slut! She's a slut who's dating 2 guys. Slut, slut SLUT!" Kevin sang.

He kept going on, and so did the other penguins. It was a beautiful dream turning into a nightmare.

I felt something touching me face. I shut my eyes open.It was Louis. He looked at me.

"you okay? You were crying."

I cried in my sleep. I looked at the clock. It was 8:47 in the morning, and I got up.

"you have to leave" I explained him. He looked at me, confused.

"why?" he asked me.

"my mom will come in..."

He looked disappointed.

"let's go watch a movie tonight"

"will the rest of the boys be there?" I asked.

I didn't want to be alone with him.

"uh... I thought that we could just do it."

"I'll think about it. Now you gotta go"

"okay." he smiled and kissed me again.