Unpuzzling, the chaos.

07- Just a little sad

I jump up, greet you with my most affectionate smile and when you respond with the same enthusiasm my heart begins to swell with happiness.

Now, let me rewind things a little.

I remember you walking through the streets with no care of the world. Having no other way to conquer, you settle in with your own efforts.
I had loved you so much and I still do the same and I am not even lying, because you have always been so special.

From the moments, we fought, a little humourously. So that the other person gets annoyed and to prove our points we even poked each other with nonsense. Lol, those days <3

But all of a sudden, there's hospital bed, phones ringing all over asking for attention, and tubes hanging around your body and you are, mere a flesh attached to machines.

I couldn't fathom what was happening, what was this situation that settled in all of a sudden and believe me when I say I still don't understand how and why.

But, BUT.. Allah swt knows
He knows his slaves better than anyone can comprehend
And that itself is a satisfactory feeling, right?
He knows, he is All-seeing, All-hearing, and he doesn't burden a soul beyond that it can bear and also that, his plans are always better than what we wish.

But sometimes it's hard to grasp,
the events.

Now it doesn't mean, I don't trust his plans. No, because I sure do. But I also miss my human who was way better in health and wellness four months back.

I am just a little sad.